You Know You Love Me

Off with her head

2012-02-12T18:12:00.000+08:00

Wow I haven't been blogging for awhile eh.

So, topic of the day: Xia Xue's new blog entry.

Sorry to say that I'll have to agree with her this time, I seldom do, but that article she just posted is just pure original and true.

I really can't stand people like Adele, they have to put others down to make themselves shine more. And another reason why I'm not all in love with Mr. Steve Jobs. Uncountable of times, he'd talk bad about other computer products or software (Windows, mostly) when he's trying to convince people to encourage his creations.

People talk bad about people, that's a sad sad undeniable truth. Everyone does that and you just have to accept it. I do it too, not proud about it.

But, sabotaging people in front of the media, and the eyes of the entire world is just so so unprofessional. It's just a matter of time for someone to actually throw eggs at him when he's stepping on people again, but too bad he didn't live long enough to go through that ( didn't mean to be rude there). He's a genius. But if he had better attitudes and knows about the existence of moral values, I'd loved him more. Just saying.

And this applies to Adele too. And yeah, she's fat. Lol. Sorry, but just agree, unless you're blind or has some deadly eye disease. Being fat doesn't affect the quality of her works, fabulous works, but if she's dealing with it this way, it might as well do. And you know what? It's okay to be fat. But to be fat and have no intention of doing anything about it? That's a whole other story.

Nobody would be angry if you study a lot and not get good grades, but if you just expect those grades to fall from the sky and blame everyone else for getting better grades than you instead of feeling sorry, well, be careful cuz you might get slapped by someone really hard someday. So hard that all you teeth might fall off and you won't be able to afford dentures cuz you couldn't get a good job and be rich like people to actually worked for their futures.

What if we're just dreaming all along

2012-02-03T22:21:00.000+08:00

Forever is just too long... Too impossible a promise to be made...

But when you say that a memory is gonna be in your head forever, that can really be the truth.

There're some great things in life, great moments, that we weren't able to capture on camera.

All we had was a pair of eyes, and an unlimited mind, and we swore that we'll remember them forever and always.

I have millions of personal forevers, all of them are equally precious to me. It'll suck so much, if I ever get hit by a truck and forget any single one of them.

And here's a tribute to one of my forevers:

The people I met, the places I went to, the lessons I learned in Oyama, Japan in winter 2010.

Just, be prepared that most of the pictures are awesome food.

Lol.

Part of the reason why I love Jap so freaking much.

Their food is of the highest quality.

SOBA SOBA SOBA WOOHOO FTW

I went to idk how many Jap restaurants after the trip to try out their ramen and soba, and hell, none of them ware as good as the ones I had in Jap. NONE.

Ahh, and of course.

The place where flowers bloom 24/7 all year round. Even when it's snowing, you see flowers.

A place where I've been dying to visit since I was a toddler watching Bananas.

I went to the one in HK when I was twelve, but the second time in Tokyo is just so much better, so much more magical.

It was nice cuz it was early winter (HK was during late autumn, which basically means late summer in Tokyo), but the winter clothes were a big big headache. They're just too huge and annoying. I could barely fit into the roller coaster seats.

C asked me about the toilets in Jap yesterday and TAADAA!

It's so cool I know.

The tub (covered to maintain the temperature of the water) is slightly shorter and deeper. And they have this machine thing, a timer, a much cuter one, which knows how to sing for God's sake, right above the tap (in front of the tub). And it's like you rinse yourself with clean water from the shower, then soak in the tub for 30 minutes plus plus, then go sit on the stool (hidden behind the door) and shower yourself with soap. So the bathing process takes about an hour or so. And it was cold, so the entire bathroom was practically filled with mist after that.

And I swear, I will never ever forget this beautiful family.

They're so awesome.

And omg look at Yukina (baby)!!!!

They drink green tea (green bottle on the table) like the way we drink water. I was practically in heaven. Green tea all day long.

Food: Terriyaki and vege tempura.

I miss cute college Jap guys!!!

Japanese classrooms are legendary.

And these people.

What can I say?

BFF? Totally. =)

THIS!!!!

Sashimi fish cubes and rice, and egg, I think.

SO fucking gooodddd!!!!

AHHH!

And expensive (guilty).

I had this in some higher ranking sushi restaurant in the Jusco mall in Oyama.

I had such incredible food for breakfast omfg.

I mean, here, all I eat is bread or cakes or random Malaysian food, but there...

And this was so freaking delicious you have no idea.

So that's it, my Jap description, I think I owe you guys this. I remember being too damn tired to blog about it when I first came back. I uploaded half of the pictures on FB though.

So that's it.

Another forever in my life.

2012-01-29T17:23:00.000+08:00

I was bored, so here's a little some-some for you awesome people:

Heh ;)

Saw this on TUMBLR and OMG I wish I have this on one of my switches. So meaningful.

More than just a lullaby

2012-01-28T16:12:00.000+08:00

Hey people, Happy Saturday!!!

So just a few moments ago, I finally managed to make myself sit down and practice my violin. My teacher just gave me my third piece right before the CNY break started. So I was working on it, my lesson's on this coming Monday. So me. He gave it to me like 2 weeks ago and I'm only responsible enough to take a look at it 2 days before my lesson. I was practically sight reading and I was like "Hey! It's sooo eee-zayyy!" Then when I was about to reach epiphany (LOL Alexandra Wallace), I realized it sounded abit too minor and that's when I decided to listen to the pros play on Youtube. And I died right after that.

It's called Adagio, so it was suppose to be slow. But I wasn't prepared that it's THAT slow. I mean, it's 2 pages long, so I thought well, maybe it's slightly moderate kind of thing since it's long. The examiner wouldn't want to waste so much time on just one piece right? I mean, just look at the video!!! 8 minutes plus. How long my entire exam's gonna take then??? My sister said she wanted to sleep listening to it lol wth. But seriously, it sounds so much like a freaking lullaby. Great, how am I gonna keep my examiner awake like that?? Big problem huh.

Oh well, God bless me.

***

Omg school's starting again in 2 days. FML. I'm so not ready to go full-swing. I mean, the next long holiday in in March for goodness sake. That's almost 2 months away. Wake me up when 2012 end.

Safe and sound

2012-01-27T17:29:00.000+08:00

Again, another irrelevant title.

It's the last 3 days of the CNY break and I'm sitting here, soaking myself in incredibly hilarious videos. Go Jenna Marbles!!! And for the first time in ages, I'm downloading songs again. Just a random piece of information but yeah, I'm actually taking time to click on hundreds of buttons and working the computer's butt off to import more songs into my playlist. My computer is so so underutilized. I really should be catching up with my music and theory and serious shit like that but my soul is too carried away by those movies and crazy songs and cousins whom I've just said bye-bye to. Aw I miss them already...

I just checked out that zodiac luck feng shui thing today and BOOYEAH! The pigs are gonna rock this year FTW. No, I don't really believe in things like that but damn it feels really good when you see your luck being predicted as good as this. It's just something to reassure me that everything's gonna be okay this year, if not, better. Okay, and maybe this kind of stuff is just for insecure people and I'm one of them. Whatever. My point being, this year brings fantastic to those who were born in year 1995. Anyways, may the year of dragon being joy, prosperity and all the good luck you need to you and people around you.

Oh and I swear I'm gonna study for all my exams this year. I swear.

Underneath your love

2012-01-21T18:29:00.000+08:00

A life lived with love is a life lived.
A real love story shouldn't have a happy ending, because they'll never end.
And sometimes, all we need to do is drop our masks, and give them our hands.

Focus on what's important to you

2012-01-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

Don't ever let something minor ruin something that means a lot to you.

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My eyes couldn't stop making tears. Seriously. I can't imagine, in another 3 years or so, there'll be times when I'm so wrapped up in my studies or university life that I just can't come home for CNY. That really sucks to the max. When everyone here is like all lively and joyful, eating so much and laughing like nobody's business, I'm half way around the globe eating cold pizza staring out the window, watching the snow pile up in the driveway and stuff like that. Sooooo depressing. Snow during the happiest week of the year. When it's all sweaty and warm here, in a good way, I mean.

TVD review: Things can really really change, a lot. It takes so much effort to join two hearts together, but just a tiny little speckle can kill everything between them. It's pathetic, but so true. And sometimes, we just give too much, when that someone else isn't interested the same way you are. And sometimes, you just don't get what you really want from them despite everything you've done to earn it. Relationships are just too freaking complicated. Too sophisticated to be described in words.

So, anyways, HAPPY CNY PEOPLE!!!

Go home.

Beautiful Manhattan

2012-01-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

It's dark outside, like DUHHH cuz it's pass nine. It's Wednesday night, meaning, two more days till CNY break strikes in. I really should be doing something productive, like my theory homework, but hell, Gossip Girl is too exciting to pass. Plus, I'm totally in CNY mood now. I mean, it's like the best best festival in the entire year. You get breaks (a week!!!), you get money, food, new clothes, fun with family, travel around, and just enjoy the presence of PEOPLE, coming to your house, awesome movies, super funneh variety shows ect ect ect.

CNY IS AWESOME!!!!

LOL this is weird but I kinda miss Jenny Humphery. I love the way she used to dress.

Words meant to be said

2012-01-15T16:49:00.000+08:00

OMG MN MN MN YOUR RED VELVET CUPCAKES ARE HEAVEN SERIOUSLY EVEN MY MOTHER LOVES THEM WTH!!!! =D

And they are really pretty tooo!!!!

The new Miss Malaysia 2012.

Hahahahha!!!

Dude I want the recipe!!!

And I swore to HY that I'll take Tumblr-inspired pictures of the charm bracelet Carmen gave me.

So taadaa:

I had another one with flowers as the background and it was suppose to be really pretty, but I didn't realise it was a bit blur till I started to edit it. Too bad. And I'm not gonna go out there just to take another picture.

Can't believe I need to go to school tomorrow. And violin lesson. Shit. Can I just rewind the entire weekend please???

The best in this kind are but shadows

2012-01-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

Honestly I still can't understand what this sentence means. Fail.

Oh my Gawd. I can't believe Tyler is breaking up with Caroline. I mean, they are one of the best couples ever and he just went bitchy all of a sudden. Which, brings me to my next point. Guys. They can be the sweetest best friends, the person who knows you the best, but the moment they get involved in some relationship shit, as in the moment they get a girlfriend, BAMM! they're the shittiest jerk you've ever known. It's like... They are so freaking attention seeking and insecure that they'll do anything to win that girl's heart. In simpler words, they're willing to sacrifice the entire forest for one single tree. The forest being friendships and other older, more important relationships with people they know. Two buddies can punch and tear each other's faces all because of some pretty girl they both like. Wow their friendship just doesn't worth much, does it? Yeah you probably think I'm just some poor and disappointed woman being let down by several assholes. Sorry, but what I've said is true. Very true.

So basically, I've given up trying to rely on males, treating them as an actual FRIEND. Not just a play-buddy who makes you laugh like nobody business and nothing else.

Ugh I can't believe the flu bug bit me... Seriously my nose is like forever blocked, and my eyes can't really stay open. And that's the reason my piano lesson was crap today. Teacher was super frustrated, I can tell.

I could wait patiently but I really wish you would

2012-01-08T18:18:00.000+08:00

DROP EVERYTHING NOW ♥

There's this thing about my titles, they'll never relate to my posts' bodies.

Just done cleaning up after my hamsters and I guess I'm gonna blog about them. I know I know, I haven't been talking much about them since Looney existed but I swear I haven't been neglecting them. I have been the only person cleaning their cages and giving them fresh hamster food. So I don't really have the heart to abandon them. They're probably the reason Looney's still alive. I mean, I got lots of idea on taking care of rodents because of them. And come to think of it, bunnies and hamsters are actually pretty similar.

They don't do much. Seriously, most of the time they just sit around, sleep, eat, or just... Stare at the wall blankly...
They won't get bored eating the same food for the rest of their lives. This is so sad.
They seem to understand me perfectly when I scream the word "NOOOO!!!". And I will not be convinced otherwise. (ie. They're just too startled to continue what they were doing.)
They look terribly like freaking seals when they lay on their stomach 'cuz their fat tends to cover their legs. Hahaha!!!
They can be the most adorable things you ever see. =)
They don't make noises. But my hamsters too squeak a little, when something's bothering them. OR when they fight. Gosh hamsters love to fight, sometimes for fun, but there are times when they end up half dead, and that's when I have to operate YJ's Most Awesome and Efficient Hamsters' ICU. Maybe I should include this in my Vet Uni application next time.
They have this magical power of keeping themselves clean even when their cages smell like sewage water.
I love both these little darlings.
They're one of the most human-friendly animals on earth.
I'll never feel bored, just sitting there, watching them.

There. Pets are soooo easy. They'll never complain, and they'll always be there when you need them. So, bring home little animals people!!!

Carefree

2012-01-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

Omg I seriously have to start changing my post title font to italics. It looks so weird all neat and upright...

It's the sixth page of chapter 2012. And the first Friday of the year. This supposedly-the-last-year-we're-gonna-live is going on fine, so far. Not that I'm expecting any worse scenarios. CNY is coming soon, about 2 weeks left to another full week of holidays, mixture of craziness and rotting in my gran's house.

It's midnight, sharp, and I could really use a glass of coke right now. =)

Some distant place in the future

2012-01-03T16:32:00.000+08:00

If we ever meet again, both of us living our own new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and authenticity, I'll tell you how enchanted I was to have met you, how grateful that our lives crossed path, even it was just for a while. Cuz maybe, maybe it's not always about the happy endings, maybe it's about the story we shared. Billions of people waiting to be invited into our lives, but out of that huge crowd, it was us that made that particular story a reality. It's amazing, come to think of it, how fate had this story specially made to fit into both our lives. So, no matter what happens after this, no matter how many years have gone by, the memories you and I had will be kept safely, hidden deep down in my heart, and it'll never be forgotten.

Cheers, to the future,

to us.

***

Book title: L-I-F-E

Chapter 2012

Page 3 or 366

Hey =)

School's starting tomorrow. Hell yeah. My mom is already pressuring me in piano and my studies, what the hell right? But whatever. She... Hasn't really been in her best mood these days. Weird. But whatever.

I don't really have anything to say right now, just, happy going-back-to-school!!!

I know it sucks, but just one more year, one more year and these sickening routines are gonna die forever. Peace.

Oh and btw, look what this lovely person from Tumblr did for me!!!! :

Awww!

Chapter 2012, Page 1 of 366 ♥

2012-01-01T19:16:00.000+08:00

My first post in year 2012.

Hey y'all!
I said I'm not gonna post my new year's resolution and I'm gonna stick to what I've said.

But here's a little something about the stuff I'll try to accomplish within the year.

- Be someone better. As in nicer. Yes, I'm trying to be nice.
- My A's. Yes, all of them.
- Music. Like always.
- Someone who'll mean the world to me. Gosh I sound so desperate. But I'm serious. It doesn't have to be a relationship kinda relationship, but I wanna meet this person that'll change everything. For better or worse.

That's about all I wanna post about my resolutions. No rocket science, no being president of USA, just plain... normal... I guess you can put it that way.

Once again, HAPPY FREAKING 2012 EVERYONE!
Cheers. =)

As a teen, I spend way too little time in my room.

2011-12-31T23:30:00.000+08:00

Just a random fact, but true.

It's like... Everyone, their room is practically their entire house and mine is just a place for me to change and bathe. Funny I know.

Less than an hours till the final seconds of 2011. 2011 had been okay, ups and downs, but honestly, there were more of the former. So I guess I should be satisfied. Like I said, 2012 is gonna be more tense than ever. But I'm prepared for it. Maybe music is not that difficult or annoying or pointless. I mean, maybe I underestimated myself in my capability of handling these instruments.

The hell, why am I writing like that...?

*Fireworks lighting up the night sky like fireflies in the forest*

It's probably already 2012 in Aussie and Japan and Korea and maybe Russia. I don't know why, but the ending of this year and the coming of the following one means so much to me. 2012 is gonna change a lot of stuff, no doubt. School's gonna end forever, I'm gonna leave for college, people are gonna leave, but awesomer ones are gonna arrive... So I just wish you guys all the best in the brand new year.

No matter whatever mistake you did this(last) year, it should really end. Live 2012 like a brand new, clean piece of paper, think of it as a fresh start, another chance to do everything right. It's time to let go of the past and embrace whatever that's waiting ahead of you. Live to the max.

Raise your glasses:

May 2012 bring joy and love.

Cheers.

Sandcastles. On the ground.

2011-12-30T16:35:00.000+08:00

Hey, one more day and 2011 is officially history.

Well, I have lots and lots of stuff I wanna tell y'all, but I thought Xia Xue did a really good job wishing all her readers, so I'm gonna borrow some of her words.

(Go read her blog!!!)

So, people, follow you heart, embrace your dreams, spread more love.

HAPPY 2012 Y'ALL!!!

You guys are awesome, by the way.

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?

2011-12-28T23:14:00.000+08:00

To my future husband or soul mate or whatever... :

DARLING DON'T BE AFRAID,

I'VE LOVED YOU FOR A THOUSAND YEARS,

AND I'LL LOVE YOU FOR A THOUSAND MORE,

AND ANOTHER THOUSAND MORE...

(you get the idea)

No no... I'll dedicate the entire song to you. I'll do a cover on it, I'll sing and play, I'll shoot an entire movie based on it, all for that one special person that I haven't met.

Wow this sounds crazy.

Anyways...

School's starting in less than a week, I have tons and tons of homework to be done, and school stuff to pack, shoe laces to get tied, IDK 18 or 20 textbooks to dig out, uniforms to be ironed, pens to be gathered and put into my pencil case ( they're all scattered everywhere), tuition days to be remembered (shit I forgot all about the new schedule thing) and and MONEY! Shit I overspent this holidays. I swear I'm not going out till CNY. Oh, and about CNY, I need more new clothes. See! And the list goes on and on.

But (yes there's always a but), my heart is constantly telling me to leave everything to be done by themselves. It's like my last long holidays ever. EVER!!!

Stuff that I'm supposed to do this holidays are mostly left undone.

Music: Oh... HAHAHHAHAHAHAH! FTW... But I DID spend some time on piano practical. I swear I did. Probably it's because mom upgraded the piano. I"ll come to that next time, or later. And yes, it'll be all annoying bragging. YESTERDAY was the first time I've touched my violin since December started. I'm glad sight reading on the violin is so shitass easy. Theory. Ah that bastard. Screw music theory.
Get over that someone: I practically hate you now. Bye bye.
Tumblr followers target: AWWW 20 more to go only mahhh!
The BF project: Well I guess I sorta failed. But I earned something more than a freaking relationship.
Old books to be read: FAILLL
Diet project: I'm surprised even I have the courage to mention this.
Studies: I was suppose to drill on Add Maths... Heh... But... BUT... I can do Log blindfolded now though. What 'CHEEHHH'?????? It's so freaking confusing kay!
Make Looney not get out from the house compound: Freaking bunnies are freaking hard to train wth.
Make friends: HUGE HUGE TICK HERE
Finish up my love story: I forgot my plot.
Bake: K lah.
Go watch every cool movie I've missed this year: ALMOST THEREEEEE
Learn guitar: I think I'm gonna give up.
Learn HTML: blank
Save money: Went negative here.
Figure out my future: AT LEAST I know that I'm signing up for January intake in Taylor's.

So yeah... I'm so fucked up. But that's cool. Things... are gonna work out. At least I hope they will...

Hey, and I just realized how fucking small this town is. It's like I know him, he knows her, she likes him, he knows him, he dated her, she's BFF with her, and she's friends with him, and I realized I should have talked to him more. And now I'm like FTW. I screwed up like 5 or 6 relationships in one go. Wow I'm awesome.

That's just what it takes

2011-12-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

Okay, hey, Happy Boxing Day, Happy Day-after-Christmas, Happy 5 more days to 2012.

I'm back home again, and I promised you some pictures from my eating trip, but I'm tired shit. So please be satisfied with some of these photos, give me a few days to get things sort out.

So, I was suppose to place these pictures at the end of the post, but I've searched high and low, in and out for that fucking SD card, and I think these photos deserve primary attention. Because of them, my room looks exactly like the one Bella and Edward had their first sex in. Okay, that's a little bit of exaggerating there...

One of the best lessons I've learned to far, is to listen and understand, before you be all judgemental and bitchy, cuz there's always a story behind how people are behaving right now. Don't rush to the verdict, give them chances to speak for themselves.

Obviously, it's a Tumblr thing.

Those of you without a Tumblr, you're missing out loads. They have the awesomest quotes and life lessons awaiting, just for you. Now go go go create a blog and please remember to check out mine!

;)

Another Tumblr-ish thing.

I tried writing it on the cardboard behind the white parking ticket (yes, it's a parking ticket from Queensbay thankyouverymuch) , but it turned out to look a great deal like shit. I wonder how the Tumblr people does it...

YUMMMMM!!!!

*this is merely for showing off purposes*

I didn't get to drink their coffee this time, but I'll never get bored of taking pictures of their instruments. Makes me wanna be a barista too...

I really don't know what I'm suppose to say or do right now.

I mean, what is right, what is not?

What'll work, what won't?

What's the best, what's the worst?

What's expected, what isn't?

What I need to do, what I don't?

What I should believe in, what I shouldn't?

The boundaries between these extremities are so so vague.

I've bitched about this before I know, but I still can't get this making-the-right-decision thing...

Before I go:::

Say hello to my new niece!!!

The cutest thing on earth.

Just look at her, her world, how simple it is...

I wish I could be like her again.

Hearts, kisses and hugs

2011-12-22T17:00:00.000+08:00

It's 22nd December 2011. 12 days till school reopens, 9 more days till 2012, 3 more days till Christmas Day, a month till CNY. So, HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND SEASON GREETINGS PEOPLE!!!

I just came back from a 3 days camp, and I'm leaving Ipoh again in less than 24 hours, with sore legs and arms, and mosquito bites, AND, memories of awesome hugs. ;)

I have the sudden urge of hugging every single person I know. Maybe I'll go set up a free-hugs booth or something for charity next time.

Okay, I'm really lazy to describe the camp now. Maybe I'll just not blog about it. Btw, it was awesome. I'll bring my camera tomorrow and pictures will be up when I get back. No promises, but I'll try my best.

Till next time,

HOHOHO...

MERRY FREAKING CHRISTMAS!!!

∞

2011-12-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

INFINITY

Hey, it's a Saturday night in mid December, I'm listening to old love songs, reblogging girly and lovey dovey stuff on Tumblr, Googling for another romantic comedy to accompany me through the night. It's just, I've been hopelessly romantic and well... pink... lately. It sounds really weird and wrong, but oh well, that's what you get for sinking yourself into Tumblr world too much. But then, suddenly, I realize, maybe it's really not important - what you're Expected to do or to be. Maybe what you really should care of is what You, yourself is thinking about. We aren't born to please anyone, and certainly not everyone. You'll never be good enough for every single human being, so why torture yourself? Why waste your youth living in insecurity and uncertainty? Why, do something you don't really have the heart in doing just so that people will look up at you? Why, on earth, try so badly to impress others, when all you need is to feel good about yourself? We always overlook what's really really important to us, and spend all our life to chase stuff we want, just to satisfy our so-called needs.

Cuz most of the time, when we're trying so hard to convince others to accept and love who we are, we'll lose ourselves and fall into reality's mould and we become who we are presumed to be, by the rest of the free world.

Credits to those amazing bloggers on Tumblr, the movie Remember Me and Friends With Benefits, and The Back Up Plan.

Be fearless enough to follow your heart.

Maybe it's how happily-ever-after's are formed.

Cheers to the teenage years.

Unless you're falling for one, or guys are just intolerable

2011-12-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

~~Boredom~~ Reasons Kill.

Oops, sorry, it was suppose to be Boredom KillS, but it's not like I can write Reasons Kills or Reason Kills, so it's kinda awkward here...

So, holidays, to be honest, it's kinda okay. Some parts were superb, definately, some parts boring, some normal. This week, I haven't really been going out with anyone but my family, but it's kinda awesome in some way. Cuz, you see, when school's on, I don't really get to go out with mom to random places like the post office and whatever in the morning, and go eat unnecessary meals. And siblings fights... It's annoying sometimes, alright, maybe it IS annoying, but hey, I won't be able to do that for too long.

Okay, that's it for now.

Chillout.

In the beautiful streets of Taipei IV

2011-12-11T18:28:00.000+08:00

I know I said that I'm done with the Taipei review thing, but I'm dead bored now and well, maybe I'll just edit a little, and take my time to upload the pictures while I catch up with my really stupid drama.

Soooo... I think I skipped the Dan Shui part, I don't know, too lazy to check back.

But lets start with Yang Liu.

Went there right after Yu Ren Ma Tou.

That place was really effing cold, explains the coffee. It sucked, but to prevent myself from freezing...

Yang Liu was basically stones and geology stuff, stuff that I'll probably never understand. But it was very beautiful, they preserved it pretty well.

Beautiful.

Just beautiful.

Then we travelled by cab to Jiu Fen.

I think a scene from 那些年 was filmed here. That part when they led their wishing lantern.

Jiu Fen is a really really old street. A place where the miners have fun after work. Have fun, here, means to get wasted and go hit on prostitutes.

Anyways, they managed to keep that really old architecture and crap like that. Quite pretty. =)

***

Last full day in Taipei.

We went to SOGO and around centre Taipei, 101 tower and stuff.

Oh, and they have McCafe.

=DDD

Here's one thing I'll always do when I'm out of the country:

1. Check out their airport toilets.

2. Travel in their taxis and buses.

3. Eat pork burger in McD's.

4. Go get some coffee from McCafe.

5. Go search for stars.

And their coffees are damn cheap. Unlike this deadly place, a stupid cup of Starbucks costs freaking over 10 bucks. It's just Starbucks. Coffee packed in airtight packets. With a 100% automatic coffee machine. Crazy one.

Their coffee, from any cafe is like Rm4-7, depends on the size and type.

This latte above cost like 5 bucks.

SOGO wasn't open till 10am, so we went shopping in their groceries part.

Heh.

And I was like OMFG all their food was imported from either Japan or Korea.

Korea still ok lah, but 80%++ is from freaking Japan. They might as well just let the Japanese government rule Taiwan...

Lalalalalalalalala....

Macaroons. =)

I ate this in Japan too.

It was like some cream puff, but instead of cream inside, it was ice cream.

Green tea, if you're wondering...

FTW.

ANPANMAN ANPANMAN ANPANMAN!

アンパンマン!!!!!!!

I couldn't find Pororo...

Anpanman is awesomer idc.

Get this.

Before they open, they'll brief all their workers and they'll get into their lines to welcome and bow to the customers. Oh and before that, they'll serve tea to those who were waiting outside.

I felt like those CEO you see in dramas...

LOL

Lunch was at the famous Ding Tai Feng.

Seriously, theirs was wayyy better than the one in Pavilion or Megamall...

And their menu had more variety. A bit pricey lah, but worth the wait and the money. Fyi, we had to wait for an hour to get our table.

The must.

Omg I'm missing it already...

超奇怪的。。。他们很喜欢喝酸辣汤。。。

I forgot how we got back to centre Taipei...

But dad, sis and I went hunting for bubble milk tea while mom took the naggy bro back to the hotel.

I didn't know Comebuy was from Taiwan. Hahahaha!

I thought it was like Chatime or something, just operated by locals who gives too much damn to act like Taiwanese.

Comebuy's Oolong bubble milk tea was heaven. Like HEAVEN. And their pearls. Their pearls have taste one. Tea, I think, but definitely way better than those you get here.

I mean, Chatime's oolong also not bad lah... But they still have a lot to learn. ;)

Spent awhile watching the sunset from my hotel room balcony.

So prettttyyyy!!!

I wonder if Manhattan's summer sunset is any close to this one...

Manual focus.

After that we walked to Xing Guan Shan Yue, but they had like 3 buildings altogether. Crazy.

Street performers and artists.

They rocked man.

It lit up the sky like a candle in a dark room.

A freaking Christmas tree by freaking Tif&Co right under 101.

Heh this was slightly better than the first one I had.

Not slightly... It's A LOT better.

After that was walk walk shop buy eat and walk more.

Went to 诚品 before going back to the hotel and bought C's present. =)

TaoYuan International Airport.

Crowded like frog.

Oh btw, I saw some guy who looks exactly like Lee Min Ho in City Hunter at the security check. I was digging for my camera right when it was still on the conveyor belt like some mad woman. But fuck, he was walking too fast, towards another terminal, at the other end of the airport. Screw it.

First time I've seen Porsche Design with my very own eyes.

Before that was all glossy pictures from magazines, news, articles and Millionaire Asia... And I was like WOWWW!

Eeek...There was this super adorably Hello Kitty gift shops that sells things that cost a bomb.

Japanese again.

So I guess this is it.

But I promise, those random photos in random posts thing will still be on.

Peace.

What are we Really living for?

2011-12-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

I spent the whole goddamn day thinking about life and what I haven't been through yet. I know, it sounds so depressing. Reason, I've finished another Jodi P. book. About a girl, lady actually, doing wrong stuff, making mistakes and sucky decisions which changed her life into a roller coaster ride. But at least, at least she had the luck to love the right guy. No lawsuits this time. Just complicated medical terms from Mars or Venus, a young mother, and a guy who lacks realisation who vowed to climb every mountain in life together, and needed something to trigger the love they had for each other. I couldn't take it anymore so I cheated a little. I skipped to the last page when I was reading the last few chapters and that final page alone, made me cry like #^*($!@#&...

Lol. It was to freaking windy. Even the dog had problem keeping his hair fabulous and kempt.

-Taken in Dan Shui. Needless to say where in Dan Shui. *winks

Oh, and just fyi, I'm giving up uploading pictures from Taiwan. Too damned lazy an ass to do it. Look, I'll just post random yet adorable photos in random posts. With caption and all. Best of both worlds.

Oh and I was just happily telling C: I found the second supply of macaroons in town. Me so freaking excited. It's just a few steps away from the first one I found few weeks ago. But this has more strange flavors. They had like durian macaroons. What's next? Celery?

So... I was saying, my first supply is some strawberry juice shop near my violin studio. Yes, it's a juice shop. How cute right?! And the second one, I had dinner there, that's how I found out. It's a one-horse-town kind of shop. All snug and randomly decorated. Those tiny diners you see in small town American movies. They had old country songs playing from the hi-fi, tables and chairs all unmatched, inappropriate-sized shelves displaying irrelevant stuff. But, but, the weirdest part of the restaurant, they had really nice pictures of new York City and yellow cabs hanging on the walls. And, they serve scones. LOL! With earl grey summore. Talk about irrelevance.

I forgot.

I forgot how it used to be like.

I forgot what I was expected to say or do.

Now, we're just living in memories, hoping that time could heal everything.

But the truth is, I don't think it ever will.

We were thought not to give up, but what if giving up was the only way to reduce the damage?

Now I really want a pup

2011-12-09T15:11:00.000+08:00

My neighbours are away, to HongKong, I think. And they had this lady coming to their house to feed their dogs and water their plants. Then the dogs managed to sneak out yesterday, and she just didn't care to chase them back before she closes the gate. So those poor dogs just wondered around all day and night, and the rain was effing heavy last evening. So this morning, mom decided to let one in (we couldn't find the other one). The reason we didn't want to host them before, they scare the fuck out of Looney. Like seriously. They're really friendly, actually, but they get super curious when they see other animals. So normally, when they have the chance to get close to Looney, they'll make super cute sounds and start to sniff and lick him. And bunnies, they're not comfortable with loud noises and foreign smells. And the dogs would probably poo and pee all over the place and stuff like that. So yeah that's the reason. But she was all cold and wet and hungry this morning it melted my heart.

And damn, Fluffy is so freaking cute and nice and obedient! Makes me want my own dog so much. I fed her human biscuits cuz I don't really have dog food and rabbit food is too effing expensive to be gobbled like that, and she did whatever I asked her to do. And now, she knows the rules, she's only allowed to be outside the house and she's suppose to go to the grass to eat... Oh, plus, she responds to my call. Every single time I call out her name, she'll dash to wherever I am. Unlike Mr. Looney BunBun who'll only come to me when he wants food. That pretender .She's adorable. And I really really want a pet dog. A golden retriever would be nice. =) Too bad my dad's too stubborn to realise anything positive about dogs, or any other animal.

Get this. Everyone in the family but him was out of town for like a 2 days this week, and he was suppose to feed Looney. He didn't want to open the cage to get Loons' bowls to fill up the water and pallets cuz he was afraid Loons might burst out of the cage and flee, and he didn't want to get his princess hands dirty. This was his great plan: He poured water into Loons' water bowl with a watering can, and dropped Loons' bunny pallets one by one, through the gaps of the cage, into his food bowl. How brilliant!

Just, I want a dog.

In the beautiful streets of Taipei III

2011-12-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

It was late noon, we got daddy from his conference hall, and wiggled our way through the narrow stairs of the MRT station, got on a train that brings us to Xi Men Ding.

Okay this picture looks... weird...

It was the reflection of a piece glass...

Xi Men Ding was basically shopping.

But damn it was late autumn, meaning, they were all selling winter clothes... Wool and stuff, which obviously, isn't suitable to be wore here. So I didn't really buy much. Just kept eating.

Oh, I bought a really cute winter hat though.

Oh look!

Anpanman!!!!

Just if you don't know what's so special about this doll (I'd prefer figure), it's really famous now, in Japan, among toddlers and kids. It's kind of a hero...

Something like Pororo in Korea.

I actually wanted to just watch a movie and let the time past since I couldn't really find any suitable clothes to buy home, but the fuck, one movie ticket was like Rm30++ and I was like O.o... Bitch!

So no movies.

Ps: Photos I'm posting are random pictures of random stuff which I find interesting. I seriously have no patience to post everything.

Heh this was so cute.

They were advertising for some company, can't remember what company, but it was really smart. Everyone just had to stare a bit longer.

It was lunch time (late lunch, actually).

There's this thing about so called 'hawker stalls' in Taiwan... Their all self serviced. No one's gonna come to your table to take your order, even the beverages, so one's gonna bring you food to your seat for you, and you have to go around the place to look for your cutlery and sauces. And in this case, the cutlery was in a drawer under the table and the sauces were in a little wagon at the back of the restaurant.

This. THIS!

This was effing good no kidding. We ordered like God-knows-how-many plates and I doubt I'll ever have enough.

There were also noodles, soup and stuff but... Was too hungry, so ignored the existence of my camera and my job as the photographer.

This tasted like milk... And I'm not a fan of milk.

So...

Yeah, bout milk tea, I wonder how Taiwanese stand drinking them every single day. I got bored in less than a week.

When I see underwears, I think of you, Siobhan.

In the beautiful streets of Taipei, I was standing at the end of a zebra crossing, waiting for my mom buying my brother is freaking robot.

Then we went into some CD shop.

Mostly Taiwanese artist, but of course, there was more...

C, they had like a huge column for SJ and I thought it was quite cheap. Bout Rm20-30 for an official album. But I didn't know which one you have or which one you don't... So... heh...

Hey hey, before you say anything, I had to squeeze through a bunch of high school boys in their uniforms to snap this picture okay...

Those boys...

There was another big column for SNSD.

Jay Chou had his own rack for God's sake.

Movies, books, albums, concerts, posters... Just name it.

And at the last column of his rack were books. Novels, of Taiwan dramas.

AWWW!!!

This drama rocks.

Oh btw, I passed by the cafe where Yang Chen Lin cried and all, thinking of his ex!

And that beach where Song Jie Xiu thought she was about to kill herself.

Both along the road from Dan Shui to Jiu Fen.

Tian Bu La.

I find it... Normal. Something like that bean curd thing you get everywhere in Korea.

But Korea's was better cuz they had that really really epic soup. That soup was so freaking sweet and... nice.

Yup, this is the infamous Tian Bu La.

Yeah yeah, Taiwan, famous for it's Dou Hua, but seriously, you come and try the one in Ipoh's old town and you'll know what's awesome.

Ipoh has the best tau fu fah. No doubt.

Heading out!!!

Then we took a cab back to centre Taipei.

Along the beautiful streets of Taipei:

FUCK THE WORLD!!!

Okay, this is blur, so much noise ( I got not nice nice flash so I had to keep adding the ISO... MOM!!!! FLASH!!!), and my hair, or rather, the entire me was awful cuz I've been out from morning to night, and the one holding the camera was my dad.

This photo was cropped and edited and still...

Haiz...

This is pretty disgusting too...

Carmen, there's a reason why there wasn't much photos of me.

My mom refused to touch the camera.

Eslite bookstore was a heaven.

The whole stinking building of freaking books.

Whatever language, whatever type, whatever... I don't know.

Just... They have like everything and anything.

OMG right?

That thing was so damn big we could just stay there for the whole night.

So we had dinner IN the bookstore and continued to book-shop after that.

Some normal Taiwan-style restaurant with a stupid name and a cat as it's logo.

Smart.

It was okay.

The only dish I really adores was the cod fish. You don't really get to have cod fish in M'sia often. It's more like seasonal and it's not cheap either.

This reminds me of Japan.

There was one evening we had shabu shabu for dinner and it was just cod fish and vege and udon. Perfect. =)

So here, I end my third post on Taipei vacay.

I kinda miss that place now...

Last Christmas I gave you my heart...

2011-12-03T23:21:00.001+08:00

Enough of the post-Taiwan-vacay enthusiasm for a little while and lets focus on the present and future now, instead of the past. The second week of the holidays is coming to an end. How depressing. Thinking about Christmas, it being a time's-up warning bell, reminding me to patch up all those stuff left undone, telling me to get my list ready for another brand new year and to make sure my heart is prepared for whatever that's coming for me. I remember, those days, Christmas meant having a nice satisfying dinner out on Christmas Eve and coming home to sit on the couch cozy snug with my family, all excited to watch a touching movie, then munching tidbits by the sliding door with wine and sparkling juice, waiting for the arrival of Christmas day. We stayed in a little single storey house with a small porch barely enough to have a proper pond, but at least I felt closer to them then I ever did. Now... Okay, it's probably not as bad as it sounds, probably it's just the signs of me growing up and all... I mean, people can't be forever babies right... wtf am I trying to say here? Ugh, nevermind.

And now, here I am, all alone in the study, with the desktop turned on, talking to my cousin, blogging and listening to old Christmas songs all alone. Gosh this sounds really sad. What I don't have are nine cats sitting by my side and leaning on me. Heh.

Oh btw, Ours' music video is out! And I almost, almmooosttt cried at the end...

In the beautiful streets of Taipei II

2011-12-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

After sleeping at about 2am the night before, we woke up early, and well, went out.

I can't really remember where we went for breakfast but it was ZhongXiao East Street I think...

It's really near to the hotel so...

Took this from the hotel balcony.

Beautiful right?!

Bellavita.

The building was breathtaking. So were the prices of those handbags they sold there.

I saw my Cayennes EVERYWHERE!!!

Every single day, in Taipei City.

3 in 5 traffic lights, I'll see one. And it was bliss~

Breakfast.

This thing was... nice... LOL

Breakfast again.

We actually went there for the soy milk. I have the picture.

(I actually took a picture of almost EVERYTHING I saw, but you know lah, Streamyx being a bitch and all... And my laziness... forgive me.)

Then after that we walked to the MRT station and took one to the zoo. =)

Taipei Zoo, you're so freaking cute. The entire zoo was adorable, so were the animals.

It was 8 something and we had to crash with the working crowd. Dammit it was really crowded that morning.

The counters were all packed, so we helped ourselves with one-time tickets from the machines.

Ermm... so... here's a glimpse of the ticket. It's actually a plastic coin, if it's not obvious enough...

The train was so packed it looked like it'll boom anytime...

And just compare it with a Saturday morning train:

At least here you can see the aisle...

Even the elevator was &(^)$*(@#...

Then we had to switch line to some other line... heh...

Kim Nana in the train to Taipei Zoo...

;)

Frankly, I have hundred over pictures that were taken in the zoo... and I am not capable of uploading them all unless someone get me Unifi like NOW.

Hedwick?

Their nocturnal animals part was superb. They actually manipulated the animals' bio clock so they were really active during daytime... No need night safari anymore.

This thing had a purpose... I didn't finish reading the signage...

KOALA!!!

They are so freaking cutteee!!!

The train-bringing-you-around-the-zoo was just stupid.

Seriously.

Penguins... and I thought of Pororo... Great.

Taiwan super lag one... they only start having maple leaves after mid December...

This was just... A luck one... Wth right...

Japan by now, all leaves gone d.

SEE! Oh my shit, early December and they still had flowers. Lavender summore...

Elephant?

Believe it or not, it was just standing like 2 feet away from me... I had to move back to snap this picture.

OMG their kindergartners were so freaking cute!!!

Those two kids sitting in the hippo's mouth... Aww...

Bro insisted on McD's and I had... this...

It was just normal mini-swiss roll but hell they were too cute for you to not buy them...

After that we walked to some cable car station to some really windy mountain.

Sorry I really have problem remembering the names.

一般垃圾 LOL!

Specific right?

So damn specific.

==''

There it is!

That mountain is call Mao Kong.

So weird lah...

But the view from the cable car was amazing. You could almost see the whole Taipei. Except for a certain part blocked by a little hill...

I took a lot, and I mean A LOT, of unnecessary photos, but how can one just ignore views like this?

Just look. They should film a movie here or something.

Or MV's!!!

Nice right?

101 is so freaking tall...

Holy shit the peak of the mountain was really cold. The temperature was fine, but the wind...

Then mom said that place was famous for its tea. So we went to have tea.

Yeap...

Ever seen a traditional pro making tea?

Lol... joking...

It's just making tea...

I don't know how I ended up focusing on the effing vege...

Heh he's so cute!

Like those Ah Pek you see in movies...

All of a sudden, my bro went all emo and down... All because tea and mushrooms didn't suit him...

What a brat...

Just so you know, the floor of the cable car was a huge piece of glass... But it was pointless cuz under us was just... trees and bushes...

Then after that we went back to the city centre to meet dad after his conference.

To be continued...

SO HOT!

In the beautiful streets of Taipei I

2011-12-01T14:52:00.000+08:00

I've been to several International Airports, and none of them, I mean none, is as pretty as KLIA. I mean it.

So, so beautiful.

***

Arrived.

Hey look who's still advertising for Tour Taiwan!

It was evening and we went straight to center Taipei, where our hotel was located, checked in, washed up, and took a cab to RaoHe.

And look what I saw!

In the beautiful streets of Taipei, a Proton Gen 2 (is it ah?) vrooming gracefully and fiercely like a Jaguar roaming free in the Sahara deserts.

Come on, it's a freaking Proton you know!!!

I can never understand the joy of eating Taiwanese sausages. They're like... plastic.

Can't remember their names, but the one with peanut was really nice. =)

I have like another 8-10 pictures of street food we ate but please forgive the laziness in me. The line's so effing slow...

OHH and their dogs!!!

Pet dogs are so common there till they're allowed to bring them into MRT's or any other public enclosed places. So cool right!

And they dress their dogs up in the cutest outfits ever.

Awww!

Just look at these two girls...

They were like... fierce.

Couldn't stop barking.

See what I said about frying everything?

BUNNIES!!!! They come in pairs.

Pink and black ears, in tiny little cages...

I almost melted on the spot... Dying of cuteness.

This was how it actually looked like from... far.

Quite amazing actually, the lights and all...

And during my first daily visit to Seven Eleven, I saw this:

I was like OMFGOMFGOMFG RM3+ only I'm gonna fucking drink this everyday.

And I did.

I FREAKING MISS JAPAN!

Picture perfect memories

2011-12-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

Hey people, I'm back. If you're wondering, I was in Taipei for the past few days, for... Erm there was no specific reason. I just went there, with my family, and well, visited a few places and ate, like a lot. Pictures coming soon I promise. But I haven't decide if they're gonna be on FB or here. We'll see lah. =)

So I guess this post is gonna be a review of the magnificent city of Taipei, without photos.

FLIGHT:

To- The flights was okay, but the food... If I wasn't starvingly hungry, I'd probably throw everything out the window (yes I'm aware that there's no way I can open the freaking window). And someone really needs to teach the air hostess the difference between Coke and freaking Pepsi. 我说我要可乐你干嘛给我Pepsi??? “它们不都一样吗？” 废话！要不然两个都叫可乐好了啊！妈的你。。。

Fro- The food was way better. Still not as good as Cathay, but at least you don't have that constant urge to slaughter the person who cooked it. BUT, the flight back was just awful. Probably cuz the pilot was Malaysian, and he was like... Old. Omg this reminds me, last year, coming back from Tokyo, there was this Captain Edward from Aussie flying my plane and he was like HOT! Seriously, when he appeared on the screen, everyone was like... O.o "I'll feel alright if I die in the hands of this lovely guy..." ;) Back to the flight coming back from TaoYuan I.A., he took like 30 minutes to set up and the taxi part took forever. And there's this thing about me, I can't fall asleep, no matter how heavy my eye lids are, unless the plane takes off. But boom, this pilot flies like a snail. And there was this super freaking scary turbulence when we were passing the Philippines Islands. He did warn us about it but it was really scary. And I had to pee. So imagine: You're on a plane and it was so bumpy you thought you were going to die, and the clouds outside were just grey and gloomy, and you really needed to pee. This was just sad.

HOTEL: AWESOME! =D

TRANSPORT:

We traveled mainly in taxis and MRT's (捷运). Their service was really good, efficient. The Chinese way. And I think it's considered quite cheap. Cheaper than S'pore taxis, confirm. And Taiwan patrol is definitely more expensive than those in S'pore. And needless to say, their MRT is awesome as ever. Similar to HK's. Just bleep your card and move with the crowd. Even little kids know what to do.

PEOPLE:

The sales people were really nice and friendly. And their service, omg, so freaking good I tell you. All you had to do was request and boom, you're the queen. Most of the citizens are quite helpful, but some of the older generations are still kinda grumpy and well, Chinese. But what I can never tolerate is that annoying voice those Taipei girls deliberately make when they talk. I think it was suppose to be cute but I find it rather disgusting and... just annoying. I don't get why anyone would want to do that.

Taiwan fashion was just... Japanese. All their clothes come from Japan, well most of them lah. And the way they dress, their hair, their make up and their style was really really Japanese. In fact, it wasn't just the fashion. Even in the entertainment industry, they're still J-Pop. They still watch cute cute Japanese dramas. Their manufacturing industry was totally Japanese. They sell miso soup in their neighbourhood restaurants for God's sake. They serve wasabi in seafood restaurants. So cute right!

WEATHER:

Warmer than I expected, but still okay. Bout 20 degrees during day time, bout 18 during night. Their mountains just began to snow 2 days ago. So I guess the temperature is dropping everyday now.

FOOD:

Edible. Not superb, I don't really fancy their street food. They fry a lot, but they don't really get fat cuz they walk a lot. Imagine if you eat their street food everyday in Malaysia, you die of obesity for sure. A huge piece of fried chicken, some chips and a large cup of bubble milk tea and that's lunch already. And those people there are constantly eating. No kidding.

CURRENCY:

This was just crap... Our currency is about RM1 to NT$10, but shitass lah, you can't even get a nice bowl of Ramen with NT$100. I feel like a freaking beggar there. All our proper meals costed about RM200. More or less. And we ate like middle class restaurants. They spend at least RM30 for a freaking movie ticket. Currency is an idiot.

Period.

Whatelse?

Overall, the city was awesome. Seriously. And plus, I used to be a super fan of Taiwan dramas, and when I was there, I kept seeing places I've seen on my TV screen. It was quite fun, trying to remember which scene was taken here, who had been sitting on the same bench I was sitting on, who was standing there, saying what, to who... ie. That beautiful street in JiuFen they filmed 那些年, some really cozy cafe where 林晓如 and her ex used to go in 醉后决定爱上你, and that beach where she 'killed herself'... These are the more recent ones lah... The place was basically just beautiful and well, Taipei.

Oh, and best of all, their import taxes are really low, meaning, you see great cars EVERYWHERE. There was this Saturday when they didn't need to work, I saw like an entire lane of sport cars lining up at some traffic light junction. And I didn't have my camera with me cuz I was just out to get more junk food. =='' I realised they really loooove Cayennes.

So yeah... That's about it. Just... Wait for the pictures. =)

Macaroons and croissants

2011-11-22T17:06:00.000+08:00

Let the rain wash away my sanity...

Until the day dims

2011-11-21T22:23:00.000+08:00

I can't believe this, November is ending soon. Real soon. I can still remember how hyped I was on the first day of the month, cuz November being November, I know it's gonna treat me really well. And my hypothesis was right. It's just pretty potong that the second best month (the best best month being September) of the year is prepared to depart form my life. But the best is yet to come. I can sense it. =D

Inside

2011-11-20T16:55:00.002+08:00

She sat by the window, rested her head on the icy cold glass as she watched the silhouette of the city flows by from the corners of her eyes. Just when she was sinking deeply into a pool of thoughts, her phone buzzed, bringing her back to reality. She mouthed the words on the screen of her Blackberry: Tonight, 7pm, Four Seasons, don't be late. Love you! -Alex

She sighed, and forced her eyes close. Alex, her so-called boyfriend, was supposed to be her prince charming, all because his family business was to keep a world-wide car industry alive, and hers was to produce enough microchips for the entire planet. They were the It Couple for almost 3 years now, but the chemistry between them was weaker than the phone connection at the peak of Mount Everest.

Slowly, she sauntered towards her closet, made her way through the narrow aisle between the wooden shelves full of glittering dresses, and halted right in front of her brand new pink one shoulder gown from Barneys New York. She made a rather slow pirouette as her eyes scanned the room and the contents hanging gracefully in the shelves - her masks. Those dress were what that defined who she was, or rather, who she was expected to be. Those sparkling and expensively designed pieces of cloths drew a thick boundary between the true, authentic her and the fabulous princess the city regarded her as.

She was only sixteen and decided that she was tired of all the dramas reality surprised her with. Living in a world full of expectations and regulations was more tedious that she thought it would be. She knew nothing about the guy she dated for years but had no courage to even hang out with the boy she knew everything about. She had no idea how people would gossip if she went out with a boy from a neighbourhood school he walks to every morning while almost everyone she knew went to a famous private school in Rolls Royce's and Porsche's. She pretended she was delighted to receive a Cayman on her sweet sixteen when all she wanted was a decent dinner with her forever-busy parents. She acted as if reputations and parties were all she cared about when she silently cried herself to sleep every night, thinking of what she really did and was suppose to do with her life.

Everyone knew how lucky she was to be born in such wealthy society, everyone knew how envious they were of her just because her boyfriend bought her the latest Gucci that was sold out the first day it was launched, everyone knew how happy she looked when she laughed to the jokes told in the most exclusive party of the year... But no one, nobody knew how she felt inside - when all she needed was warmth.

正 :)

2011-11-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

Conclusion: Dramas make me laugh. My brain and emotion waves moves more when I'm watching them. Do no, you don't get stupid due to drama overdose. I refuse to agree with this saying. They just can't see all these art in dramas. The humor, the ideas, the creativity in them... So awesome right?

One more day to go. It's Friday tomorrow, and it's gonna be an awesome one. I swear. I'll make it awesome. I don't know how, since I have like my blardy piano lesson tomorrow, but I'll find a way.

Oh I don't know what the hell is wrong with my but I'm so high now~

Time machines are just merely memories and dreams

2011-11-16T16:33:00.001+08:00

-via TUMBLR

Memories, they take us back to where it all started, to the parts that we cherish so much we'd replay the scenes again and again in our heads. They haunt us a lot, but believe it or not, we are who we are because of them. They were lessons, and the best teachers we could ever have.

Dreams, they bring us infinity and beyond. They'll take us to places we call forever, they show us who we really are, and what we really want. Most of them remained secrets, or worse, unrealized, cuz the thought of us wishing for something that may not have even the slightest chance of coming true scares us. But dreams are what that keeps the world spinning, with meaning.

So time machines, they really exist, and it's in every one of us. =)

Two more days to go. Happiness fills my heart every time this thought comes into my mind. I'm still not one hundred percent sure of what I'll do when school's out, but hello, at least school's OUT. And there's nothing better than that. Agree right?

Talked to someone about my plans for the future today, and it's like... a great big blank. I hate myself for that. What's so hard about finding a dream? Searching for my own passion is certainly not rocket science but why on earth, I still have no idea about it? I envy those people we see in movies, it's like they've always known what they were born for since they learned to talk in complete sentences. I know, this may be super rare in reality, but why not?

Sometimes, I just wish that I know what I really want... Then I'd save all the trouble and time I've wasted to find whatever I've been looking for.

When fantasy and reality intertwines

2011-11-07T16:11:00.000+08:00

Since when fairytales don't make sense to me anymore?

Oh I don't know. Maybe they never did. They sound kinda stupid now, and it's depressing that my mind refuses to accept the possibility of the existence of magic. Maybe I should write some short novel with fantasy as its theme. Train up my damned brain.

True Story - I LOVE BARNEY

2011-11-06T16:04:00.001+08:00

Ever want to say IDK without sounding stupid? Say this: I hesitate to articulate in fear I may deviate upon the highest degree of accuracy.

Heyya peeps!

Happy Sunday and happy Monday-is-a-public-holiday!

Yeah, Monday being a PH should be listed in the 1000 Awesome Things list.

Like SHOULD!

So... We went photoshooting at the Old Town bridge last week.

No it was more like my mom...

Just look at the sky.

Seems so magical.

Pure lovely.

It was almost dark then, but how weird, the sky looks especially blue at the time of the day, in photos, only.

And the way the lights sparkle in the photos, extraordinary.

This is super random but... This is kinda my favourite dish in PapaRich.

The most palatable one.

And of course, their milk tea lah.

*** ***

TODAY:

Look what I found in a corner in my garden!!!

Clovers!

Wild clovers, to be precise.

So freaking pretty righttt!?

I wish the entire garden is covered with them, and I'd lie on my stomach, on them, and read some novel under the morning sun. LOL just kidding. I'm not that crazy. Yet.

Haha it's quite amazing though, they just appeared from no where.

Just so you know, that dark red pot at the right part of this photo, yeah there used to be a cactus in it...

USED to...

It died.

Freaking dried up.

What the hell right?

This, my love, is my current ICU patient.

He got into a fight with his brothers, got hurt, was dying.

And me, the mighty self-made-vet saved him.

This can pass for a cover of some sonata book.

Tarry vs. Viovio

And Viovio wins!!!

He's still prettier.

Damn I really ~~want~~ need a macrolens...

Here's my Kim NaNa!

Correction: Miniature Kim NaNa.

Ciao peeps.

I'm hungry like a staved dino.

Lessons learned, bridges burned to the ground

2011-11-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

Memories...

They live in your heart, silently and constantly reminding you what things used to be like,

It stabs you right in your chest when things get too simple or complicated.

Thanks to it, you know exactly what you really want and what you don't.

It can both strengthen and weaken you.

Some sucks and they're the last thing you want to remember.

You try your very best to bury them, deep in your heart and let reality and the presence over shine them.

The thing is, no matter how hard you try, they're like this fine thorn in a bed of cotton.

You can never ignore their existence completely.

Cuz they make you you.

They make your soul a soul.

They are just simple evidences that you're actually human.

This week passed quickly and steadily. Like a ship sailing in the high seas when the water is calm. No turbulent, no complication. Two short weeks left till the holidays and I'm dreading its arrival. I don't know if it's a want or a need, or a mixture of both, I really think I should take a long long break from everything. I never thought being who I am now, doing what I'm doing now can be so tedious. I just wished I have a genie that is capable of anything and everything.

Inspired by:

PS: I'm really really fascinated by tigers.

They're nothing like what they're assumed to be.

Give them a chance to prove you wrong.

Give them a chance to rule the jungles again.

Please?

What I'd do to have you here...

2011-10-30T18:27:00.000+08:00

I have like tons of pictures in mind to be uploaded, but I'm too lazy to pick and edit and wait for them to be uploaded, so here are two really simple pictures takes yesterday morning:

I pass this road everyday, after school and damn, the T junction looks really amazing from far, but you'll have to get out from the car to take a nice picture of it. I was too lazy so I just snapped this while waiting for the traffic light to turn green.

It's weird how something you see everyday can be so pretty and no one notices it.

This looks so... artistic?

Lol.

I still can't finish the whole thing... Till now. I don't know why, my hands gets really painful and tired after 2-3 bars... Oh no, these ain't bars... What do you call it? Chains? wtf.

Hey it's Monday tomorrow.

Damn.

Best of both world? Bullshit.

2011-10-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

I've been trying really hard to learn this all afternoon, then gave up at 5pm to go out for tea, which leaded to dinner, and... now... :

They're really creative in the sense that they mixed Wedding Dress with That Should Be Me, for the background melody. Who in the world would thought of putting these two songs together?

It's kinda wrong to say that I managed to play as good as that guy, but I didn't fail lah kay... XD

Considering the fact that I haven't really seriously tried sing-play on the piano. But it's like... freaking hard.

No kidding, by the time I get my chords and lyrics together, I have no more space in my brain for the background melody, and my sis was like 'WTH are you trying to do really?' and when she listened to the video, she went like 'Oh... You didn't make sense...' Wtf right... So yeah, it was hard.

And so I thought... Hey, how nice is this. The way music can bond two souls together. Two individuals, linked by a few chords and tons of feelings. The power of music, never, ever underestimate it.

So today's topic is kinda:

CLASSIC vs. MODERN aka Contempt.

Classic wins.

To me, it wins no matter what.

Probably cuz I've poured so much sweat and tears and time and money into it. And classic has more quality and requires more skills. No doubt.

I mean you don't really have to be a pro if you wanna do modern, you just needa play and flow with the quo. It's more about blending your feelings and your senses into music. It's basically just playing with chords, and getting the harmony right.

But classics, you can't do it without skills. No way. You need practice, time, and a whole bunch of experience to master original Bach or Scarlatti. You need to know how to read ancient music language and play it. No sixth sense, no transposing, no fancifying the harmony, just read and pour it all out on the keys. You have no right to change it. Unless you think you're greater that any of those composers, which you aren't.

Sorry.

Classics is super harsh. But it's the harshness that gives value to it. That's why it's worth boasting for when you master Turkish March. No one would clap if you say 'Hey hey I know how to play My Heart Will Go On.' Cuz everyone can do it. Blindfolded. Mind my sarcasm.

BUT, there's this thing about classics students. We don't have that I-know-what-chord-goes-next instinct. And it really sucks, a lot. I can never play along with pop songs the first time I hear it. I mean, I can do the melody, but I'll have to think really hard and use try-and-error method to fit my bass in. I can never know what to do with my left hand without needing to apply my theory knowledge. It's all rules and this-must-go-with-this law for me. Maybe that's why I'm still so taken back with guitar. I'm not confident that I can just strum along with songs I hear in the car. And my dad thinks I fail as a piano student. To him, it's all by ear and by sense, to me, it's all by score written hundred over years ago.

Yeah, so, there's a really clean boundary between these two styles. And I still adore classics so go away if you're thinking of changing my mind. =P

Boundary between beautiful and ugly

2011-10-29T11:57:00.000+08:00

This uncle is so freaking awesome lohh...

Wish my dad was like him...

My dad is kinda hopeless with cameras.

In fact, he sucks in everything that involves art.

Fail.

Yeah maybe I'm boasting and all, but I have a little bit of photography potential in me.

Just sayin... ;)

It's just, when I kill someone, they're suppose to stay dead.

2011-10-28T22:15:00.000+08:00

- Damon Salvatore

I'm in love with this picture.

Mom took it, she's AWESOME.

Hit pause and think

2011-10-27T16:08:00.000+08:00

It's not what we can do in life, sometimes the choice is not ours to make.

One more day to the official end of my finals. My feelings now: I really wanna get on a flight to somewhere else right now.

Get on this:::

6 oclock in the morning, look out the window, and all you see is this:::

Plane rides suck. No kidding. That feeling when the wheels leave the runway, the 5 second heart attack you get when it touches down, that freaking cushion that smells like oh I don't know, the way people kinda panic when there's a slight turbulent, the food (eww), and of course, their washroom.

What about the washroom?

It's small.

Males and females share washrooms, which mean you get guy-pee on the toilet bowl cover all the time, the water pressure of the tap is so small it takes ages to actually wash your hands thoroughly, and the toilet flush. THAT FREAKING FLUSH IS SO POWERFUL IT CAN SUCK ME INTO THE SEWAGE.

I'm serious.

So my normal routine: Pee, wash my hands, do whatever I wanna do, close the toilet bowl cover, unlock the doors, press the flush button with left hand while my right hand stands by at the door, dash out of the washroom the second the button is pressed.

So plane rides suck. Un-negotiable.

OMG if you're any reader of Xia Xue's blog, go check out her new video. Her teeth are super perfect right now! Goodness I'm dead jealous. I want model teeth too!!!

Take a minute - remember the old days...

2011-10-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

-via Tumblr-

I was actually pumping circular formulae into my brain, and boom, it kinda stopped working, and I realized it wouldn't work anymore, doing maths, I mean. Ever had that sudden frus when your brain shut down during maths? Yeah it sucks.

It's the last official week of my form 4 finals. Quite fascinating. I mean, think about it, in a year, I'll be one of those people who are now freaking out about their damned SPM. There were a few times, I questioned myself about the significance of this exam. It's wayyyy important for me to screw up, if I wanna stay here, or go to places like Singapore and blablabla, which I have about zero interest in. Lets make it clear, I'd rather stay here than study in Singapore, let alone living there. And if I decide to go to private colleges, the only contribution SPM is gonna give me is some scholarship. And like we all know, the way they give scholarships, it's like me trying to give away money to beggars. Straight A's and they give you like... what... 4 or 5k?

*shakes head

So whaddup with that SPM-determines-your-life thingy? I don't know. But I'm dead sure I'm gonna make sure it'll be perfect. Never know when I'm gonna need that stinking cert. Ah why did I even start talking about this...?

*clock shows 10.00pm

Oh my god. One more month. One more freaking month till school's out. You can't possibly imagine how happy I get when I think about my life in less than 30 days.

Book to bury my soul in - check

Drama to be insane with - check

Vacay - check

Music schedule - I hate this, but... check

Lazy buddy - check

New playlist - check

Things-to-do-in-case-I-get-bored - check

Money - check

Work out schedule - check

Fun laughter happiness - triple check

Now... What else do I need? Right, a boyfriend.

Maybe I'll just mentally date Lee Min Ho or something...

This is kinda... Hawt...

I think he was wearing that stupid pink pants.

Gosh what is fucking wrong with the stylist???

And this!

Typical Korean...

He's sooooo pretty!!!

Is he even qualified to be called a guy?

Sometimes I really doubt that he's a dude. Seriously. Korean guy stars are... pretty.

And of course the girls also lah...

PRETTY!!!

Yeah they do plastics and shit like that, but I don't care. They're pretty. That's all that matters in the 21st century. Plastics was created for a reason. So just STFU already.

Okay I've gotta stop before I lose my sanity.

This is just... Hollywood.

It's fakkkeeeee!!!!!!!!

Okay.

Stop.

***

I wish I knew what to say then. The right thing, of course. But what difference will it make? I wish I could just wash you away, like a bad hair day. But maybe this is what that makes life interesting, leave me dreading for tomorrow. I want everything to just stop, right now, so I can have all the time I want to think, to measure everything, to do the maths so every action will be worth the profit, but then it's not called life anymore. The decisions we make, right on the spot, impromptu, can be the worse ones ever, but it'll always find its way to unwind the situation. No matter how tangled up things get.

This is something I've been trying really hard to remember.

Have faith. It's all you need.

Cuz everything happens for a reason.

Tell the world I'm comin home

2011-10-21T17:13:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow.

I'm freaking happy right now, I have no explanation. I can't believe it's November in 10 days. November, people. Fall, vacay, fun, happiness... My heart practically leaps when I think about it. November spells awesome. Admit it. Damn I'm so hyped about the schools-out-and-there's-nothing-that-can-change-the-fact-that-I'm-gonna-have-fun idea. I mean, yeah, you can brag about school actually being a little nice cuz you see your friends and shit like that. But what's wrong with making friends away from school... Like seriously. Wake up at 6.30am just to... Ah fine whatever... It's just, school sucks.

And holidays are all I'm living for right now.

And food, I need food.

So, ciao. Till next time, amigos.

All the world's a stage and all the men and women merely players

2011-10-20T16:11:00.000+08:00

In your own fact, and be someone else's fiction.

Shit Pretty Lil Liars Halloween's special is freaking the shit outta me. Ali kinda came to life...

About that fucking cruelty happening in China, those people owe humanity an apology. Just bury their souls and put up a freaking grave stone for everyone of them already.

What is wrong with the world?

What happened to being actually human?

Where's the love?

Oh there they are...

Oh My God Nami Island is so beautiful

Exam's a bitch. But I'm bitchier, sucker.

2011-10-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

The thing about photography.

You don't need mascara and glossies to be called beautiful.

Aw this poor thing was choking on something...

All I did this week was... books and exams and more books and a little bit of 10pm panicking over unrevised subjects...

I mean, come on, a life of a teenager can't be THAT boring. It's an insult, you know, you be stuck with such stuff on a nice beautiful October.

I'm sorta dreading for November. And of course, my lovely-as-always December.

Where's a time machine when you need it???

You see what I see?

Sky.

Cloud.

Ocean.

Sea.

Sun.

Boat.

Bridge.

Awesomeness...

Yeah, November and December is so gonna be great.

The norm factor

2011-10-09T18:00:00.000+08:00

There's this problem with people. I'm talking about Asians, or rather Malaysians. It's not YOUR problem, neither it's mine. In fact, it's just something so normal to us that we don't really realize it. And how I came to notice it? When I was in bed, one night, after some gossiping about, well, you don't wanna know.

We suck in accepting stuff that are not the norm. It's like, we assume stuff that are gonna happen, stuff people are gonna do, and when things doesn't turn out like what we predicted, boom we start talking and whispering. Somehow, we don't really allow people to be different, do we? No. I guess it's our norm - we are too used to the norm that things are not in our comfort zone freaks us out. Again, it's not your fault, neither it's mine.

Maybe it's because we don't want people to judge us. Maybe it's because we don't like people to go against our wills. Maybe it's because we're just simply not used to it. We stare and criticize when we see punk people with green hair and dog collars walking by, gays being... gays, wannabe's speaking some weird language... Well, people don't really have to please us all the time, do they? No.

So here's to everyone: The 21st century is amazing because of the difference in everyone. It's dead hard, to accept something that we're not exposed to, but hey, it's all about getting away from your comfort zone. =)

And here's this hilarious video, laugh.

You know the words once upon a time...

2011-10-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

Going though some old songs and damn, BLG still rocks:

And here's a little tour down memory lane:

Your harmony to the melody, it's echoing inside me head...

You voice was the soundtrack of my summer...

Nothing you say today is gonna bring me down...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing...

I didn't understand that anything can happen when you take a chance...

Once in a lifetime, means there's no second chance...

I've never been perfect, but neither have you... I've learned to hide so well, pretending someone can come and save me from myself...

Laugh it off and let it go, when you wake up it will seem so yesterday...

The day we met was like a hit and run, and I can still taste it on my tongue...

Cause everything you do the words you say, you know it all takes my breath away...

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star...

What happened to never say never?

2011-10-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

Oh IDK, screw it.

I'll Never be a psychiatrist.
Not a good one anyway.
If someone were to come to me and tell me how much the world owes him or her, I'd punch 'em till they lose all their teeth. And I'll definitely over-charge. I mean, I risk my sane-ness to talk to you, crazy-person.

I'll Never be a famous, good-hearted, honest doctor.
If someone were to come to me, all worried because they had been sneezing or having fever for like 2 days, I'd ask them to swallow some aspirin and get the fuck out of my clinic and save themselves some money.

I'll Never be a translator.
All those 'You're like a rose blooming in the fierce winter, a drop of ale in a drought. You're my string of hope when life fails me. You rank above oxygen in my pyramid of needs.'
Will become 'I need you, now fuck me already.'

I'll Never be an archaeologist.
Digging bones and ancient-ancient books and stuff?
Why would people actually do that?

I'll never be a love-therapist.
Go solve your own problems, sucker.

The list goes on, but goodnight!

You just have to be strong enough

2011-10-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

Lol. Got an email from PSPA, about a casting call for some scenes, and it made me laugh:

......

Extra Talents Needed : (1) Multiraces [Malay(10), Chinese(35), Indian(5)] - 50 pax - male & female - aged 16-50

- with "kampung2 look", instead of urban style looking Note : chinese have to look like "wong fei hong"

......

Wong Fei Hong... HAHAHAH!!!!

Right... so... yeah...

Sorry can't really blog now...

2K of mails to read and delete.

Skype to attend to.

FB profiles to check out.

Dramas to watch.

Stuff to Google.

...

Anhydrous Calcium Chloride

2011-10-02T18:16:00.001+08:00

This is suppose to make me feel like studying... Frankly, my mind, like always, is wondering around the entire globe, slowing down it's pace at everything it passes by, except for books. Books... Gosh even the name itself sounds shitty. I've been trying super hard to tell myself that books are awesome, they're so freaking sexy. Being smart is sexy too... But who the hell am I kidding?

They chop down thousands and millions of trees every day just to make these stupid piles of brick-like object... It's just that you can't really flip open a brick...

Yeah yeah... When my parents presume that I'm studying, here I am, in this very room, tapping away like a pro secretary... Screw it.

I think I'm gonna watch a movie or something... I did study ahhh!

Oh, and AB, you suck. And I have lesson tomorrow... I don't know how am I gonna explain to him...

A potion for the soul

2011-10-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

Are you willing to draw a moustache on your finger as a conversational ice breaker?

My boyfriend is at home playing with a toy train and you don't see me bitching about it...

-Amy, The Big Bang Theory

The smaller the train, the more concentrated the excitement.

-Sheldon, The Big Bang Theory

He was lonely and vulnerable from missing his girlfriend, and I was charming and supportive and face it, in this dress, the perfect combination of Madonna and whore.

-Amy again

I have to walk this earth knowing Barney squeezed my boobs.

-Lily, How I Met Your Mother

Yesterday is in the past.

Today you have a choice.

Forever is up to you.

-Ryan, Kev, Chester, Victor, D-Trix, JD and Andrew

We are two very different people so conversation gets a little tricky.

-Bernadette, The Big Bang Theory

Sticks and stones may just break bones, but the wounds from words never heal. Especially when its the words we hope we never read.

-Gossip Girl

Lets catch up, take our clothes off and stare at each other.

- Chuck Bass, Gossip Girl

You want a partner in crime? Forget Stefan. I'm so much more fun.

-Damon Salvatore, The Vampire Diaries

FML. Fierce Magical Leprechauns.

-Ryan Higa

I know that I'll feel like shit after giving in, but sometimes, it's like I do it just to get myself hurt.

-Me, watching Bridesmaids

I fuckin' love Bentley(s) and there's nothing you can do about it.

-Me

To be or not to be.

-Whoelse? My lover, duhhh...

It's more fun to be a pirate than to join the navy.

-Stevie Jobsy

Just watch my wildest dreams come true, not one of them involving you.

-Leilockheart

Wonderstruck, the start of something magical.

-Taylor Swift

When we were five, they ask us what we want to be when we grow up... Now that we are grown up, they want a more serious answer. Well, how about this, WHO THE HELL KNOWS?!

-Jessica, Eclipse

When I hear your voice, it's drowning in a whisper.

-Simple Plan

Sometimes I believe as many as six impossible things before breakfast.

-Lewis Carroll, Alice

11.11- Make a wish.

-Paris Hilton

Biggest obstacle of happiness: Undervaluing what you have and overvaluing what other have.

-Damn Right Tweets, #DRT

I had a dream, I was king. I woke up, still king.

-Eminem

***

This took me an hour plus.

I didn't Google or Bing anything.

All from the mind of mine and some inspiration from Twitter and Tumblr and....

Yeah...

Bored?

Play iSketch...

Unspoken hypothesis

2011-09-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

It's true.

The more we expect, the higher chance we'll be let down.

The higher the expectations the bigger the fall, the bigger the disappointment.

It's almost official.

I mean, you can be positive, the expectations can become rather a motivation, but hey, it's true that not everything turns out the way you want them to. Of course not. Sometimes, I wish someone would help me live my life for me, and I just lie there sleeping and watching everything flow by. Ah how wonderful, yet pointless, I know. But at least... Nevermind...

Have you ever got excited over something, something someone promised to do for you, something that was suppose to happen, something you thought you deserved, and well, you are just all jumpy and happy about it, dreading for it to arrive. And on the moment it was suppose to happen, BOOM, it didn't. You heart, the fire that was just beginning to grow, just blew off. Puff, and the mood graph goes all the way down, until it crosses the x-axis.

It's the most shitty feeling in the world. And you just feel like pulling the trigger at the person who caused it all, or the reason that stopped it from happening.

SEE!!!

I realise this post is getting lame.

Too distracted with TVD and GG.

Peace.

When you're a part of something.

2011-09-25T19:13:00.000+08:00

Maybe all you've gotta do is trust.

Maybe all you've gotta do is believe.

Maybe all you've gotta do is love.

There's a simple reason behind all complicated stories.

You just have to hold on long enough to discover it.

Wait for it

2011-09-24T23:41:00.001+08:00

It's almost midnight and I just got home.

Damn I felt like I drank a dozen of beer yesterday this morning. And afternoon was like ' shit. Fuck everyone' ...
Then it became laughing and snapping pictures of random stuff, which led to awesomeness.

And I'd proudly announce that tonight was simply legendary.

I know the damned cable virus shit ruined a little part of it, but what's important was that they did take the trouble to help us.
It's the heart that counts.

So yeah... I'm dead tired now I don't even plan to unpack my stuff... Nights. :)

Thou hath bewitched the bosom of mine.

2011-09-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

LOL! This looks so funny on a blog.
(I mean the title, btw.)

This post was suppose to be romantic and all, but with these kitties moaning so someone could fuck them, it ain't gonna work. Gosh, just shut up already. It's mating season... Hahahaha! Wait... What's so funny about it?

And woohoo, Sheldon and Penny are officially back. Aw I missed your genius languages. =) and that forever-undone lift, and Sheldon forever knocking three times on Penny's door.
You can't ruin friendship with sex. It's like ruining an ice cream with chocolate sprinkles.

Shit I need to sleep.

You can call me Beercules

2011-09-21T20:42:00.000+08:00

Barney, Marshall, Ted, Robbin, Lily, and Lily's baby is back!!!
Yay gosh I'm so fucking happy now.
Haha Barney said he was the creator of FB. And he's wooing Nora again. Aw, I love it when he was with Robbin. I mean, the way they dance, the way the have sex when they're about to fight over something, the way they high-5, the way they finished each other's sentence.
And Ted's 'It's pros and cons time!'
And Marshall got a jooobbbb!!!

Oh my darling gang of fun. =)

Oh, and you can't talk yourself into falling in love.
-Ted

And I decided.
Being together with a guy best friend is not the best choice to make.
I'd rather be-just-friends than being with him and breaking up after that and losing one of the most important people in my life.

Pretending to be just friends with someone you like only sucks the life out of you.

Routines suck

2011-09-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

I really, desperately need something new in my life.

It was like... This morning, when I realized than my life had become so super boring and well, flat. It's like playing 16 bars of semi-quavers of the same pattern on a freaking harpsichord. I know right, EWW! It's not that I don't like my current routine, but I'm not really in love with it either. I just need something new, alright? Like a trill somewhere, or an appoggiatura, and a little bit of modulation here and there.

Wait... Why the hell am I describing my life with musical metaphor?

Oh, maybe it's because I had been doing terribly in violin and theory these days.

Or maybe I haven't touched the pieces due this thurday.

Or MAYBE it's because I didn't get my freaking results today.

Oh I think it must be the results.

I'm pissed alright. Stupid money sucking AB, what is wrong with doing everything via internet? Can you guarantee that the certs will be here early huh? No right? I thought so...

Okay, so back to lame-life thing.

I think I really need to know more people. I mean, the friends, real FRIENDS, not just another name in my phone, I made this year was like... less than 10? Oh shit I'm so anti social. And the places I have been to this year... Oh God, I haven't went overseas this year. Not yet. Thank God I have November and December to burn. I held no parties this year. I haven't really been to a super cool party where you get super wasted and meet super cool people this year. And all I wanted was to get that freaking result. Screw AB.

Lets see... All I did this year was...

Music. Movies, hell yeah I watched almost ALL the award winning ones. Travel back and forth, those 2 places I call my second homes, island and SJ. Go online and Skype with random people. More online. Photography, I've improved dearly, okay, shut up. Blog. Read blogs, XX!. Short gym. Eat. Gossip. Scheme. Pets. Figuring out what to do with my future.

I didn't even find a book worth wasting my money on. Oh yes I did, Mini!!! Mini rocks. Period.

And I found a super nice coffee shop worth going to... That goes in the record idc.

I wrote 3 journals, and they're so ready to go into the fire.

I didn't get fat. Yay me.

I ignored people I'm best off without. Super YAY! It's nice, that I'm able to control my switch now.

I mastered my allegro.

I still suck in jazz. Shut up.

I found a new best friend. This is really weird but yeah... I'm glad we met. Although we missed out on each other's life for like 15 years ++...

I learnt how to do the dishes and the laundry. It's touch job. Shut up.

The list goes on.

Night.

OOOHHH and I finally know what 911 is about. I've always thought it was 3 weird psycho pilots trying to kill themselves, bringing thousands of people with them. Hah!

Boys Like Girls saved my day

2011-09-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

Great Escape, why didn't I think of you earlier!?

So finally, the pictures are transferred into the desktop, not by me, but by my mom. Heh I'm still forever lazy... And this post consist of the pictures from the mooncake thing, last Monday, and also Penang, Friday, yesterday.

And you'll realize there are less humans / living creatures, probably cuz I was the one holding on to the camera most of the time. I don't like snapping people's faces. Humans move a lot. And if you ask them to pause, they'll just look into the lens and fake a smile. It's not genuine anymore. They could be fighting over some really lame stuff a second ago and now they're staring at you, all picture perfect.

All the nice flavors are almost gone. Lol...

And YW, I teared down the flowery thing on top. Muhahahahaha!!!

It's not perfect.

My mom took it.

But don't you dare to freaking comment.

We didn't have a good flash, so she didn't use any.

Zero editing.

The plate is human-held my me.

Just an average EOS on a 10 year-old tripod.

This was placed on the floor, so okay, say whatever you want.

Zero editing again.

Took me ages ( a whole new candle burned out) to take this.

Got super frustrated.

Heh this was easy.

Sisters.

Born for each other.

***

ZERO ( I mean ZERO) editing.

Omg my mom is awesome.

So it was a sudden decision, to travel north.

We practically spent the whole day eating junk.

First stop was Penang Hill, and wow it was so weird, we go to Penang so often that we basically ignore all tourist attractions, but apparently, they had this new cable car (it hit a dog when it was launched for the first time wtf) and it had a/c... So, yeah...

Then we went to Padang for lunch.

Penang Road for cendol, then Straits Quay for my parents' coffee...

They. Are. Weird.

I was sooooooo hyped when I saw this.

It's almost antique.

And well... It had the name 'Lambo' printed all over it.

And it's Coke-red paint was awesome.

Ah I want this stinking bike...

Okay, then I'll fuck.

This is gonna be enlarged and pasted on the mosaic above my bed.

Just fyi, when I took this picture, there was this adorable toddler crying right beside me...

Haha!

This shop is called Sugar, if you're wondering, and it's the cutest shop in the entire mall ( except for that little corner-ish shop which sold paper. I mean like Paper!)...

Then of course, they got their coffee...

The last bit of a macaroon...

I can't believe I forgot to take pictures of them...

Curse me.

The only reason I followed them into the shop was to photograph the coffee-making process and all, but dammit it was too dim, I didn't have a freaking tripod, and that guy just couldn't stop moving.

So after a few tries, I gave up, and couldn't bear that lovely smell coming from Subway just opposite the coffee shop, so my siblings and I sneaked away, okay, maybe not sneaked la, and got ourselves a footlong.

No it wasn't vegetarian... Inside got meat one ah.

My hairrrrrrr!!!!! ><

It looked like a chemistry lab.

They had an apparatus for everything.

I wanna work there, if I ever study in Penang.

The boss wasn't there, but trust me, he's cute.

Middle-aged, but cute.

There was once I asked him about the tax, and he was like " Oh don't worry, we absorb the tax."

I just couldn't stop smiling.

What the hell is a jagger!?

2011-09-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

I was singing along to this song, and suddenly, I was like... WTH is a freaking jagger? Okay, this doesn't even make sense...

***

Boy you got my heart beat running away,

Beating like a drum and it's coming your way.

I'm still trying very hard to get the rap right. Gosh I need a more flexible tongue.

It's kinda depressing, when I log in to Blogger, click on New Post, and I just stare at this blank rectangular box, with an empty mind, but still determined to post something. I have like a TONS of new pictures in my mem card but dammit I'm so freaking lazy to even go get it. Let alone dragging it into my file and edit them...

I've heard almost a hundred songs tonight, trying to search for one suitable enough to dance along to. Green Day, please be it.

Cherry Coke

2011-09-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

It's a long weekend and everything started so slow and... well...

Lets see, Damon's hot, Klaus is hot, Jeremy's hot, Tyler is hot, Matt is cute, Liam is OMG, Nate is FUCKTHEWORLD, Ashton, Lucas, Kev, Ryan are awesome...

Dear 90210, I don't really need you to remind me how awesome Cali is... I already knew and I'm still feeding my little piggy bank so I can at least see that damned Hollywood sign with my own eyes.

Fuck what am I saying...?
I don't know...
Look, just... nevermind...

Everything's alright, when you're right here by my side...

2011-09-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

My all time fav...
I really can't remember all the lyrics at once, but yeah...

If the heart is always searching, can you ever find a home?

There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true...

You're the light that makes my darkness disappear...

Oh stupid movie, please load!!!

Reality is every dreamer's worst nightmare

2011-09-09T23:22:00.003+08:00

I thought of this title when I was brushing my teeth just now... I have no idea how I came out with it... Maybe I saw or heard it somewhere long ago, or maybe it's just a bunch of words my brain decided to put together. Well, whatever it is, it's not important. Just accept the fact that it popped into my head.

Reality.

It scares the shit out of people.

Reasons being, somehow, humans are crazily afraid of failure. Not even Thomas Edison can tell you he's absolutely okay with failures. I mean, imagine those work you've done, and those stuff you need to repeat again just to get closer to success... Who doesn't want to get stuff done the easy way? Like duh, everyone! But it's really funny how I find failure to be so educating and worth it when I read books and stuff. It stays in my mind for a couple hours or days, constantly reminding me that it's okay to make mistakes, and then after that I'm like, " Oh fuck, get real. I don't wanna do something with all my heart then screw it up and do it all over again...." So conclusion, to avoid depression and trouble, get it right on the first try. Those '' Try, try, try again'' stuff ain't for a normal human being.

Just so you know, this post is not planned at all. So I'm kinda like typing everything that comes to my mind. It can be really irrelevant and all... but heyy... irrelevant, it's so me. =)

Oh, and allow me to reinforce something I've been trying to tell y'all...

If God ever existed, YOU are made for Earth and everything else on this planet. The world wasn't created for you. You are reality's slave, not the other way round. So please stop freaking blaming everyone else for your unluckiness or what-so-ever. I'm dead sick about people complaining about other people for ruining their lives for them. I mean, come on, you can't keep your life like the way you want it to be. If you really can't accept it all and think that making the lives of people around you sounds fun, well, you're welcome to jump for the summit of KL tower. Oh wait, sorry, I forgot that you don't have enough courage to. My bad.

Dreams.

They're so mysterious.

I wonder how they're made.

You can dream of really ridiculous stuff, or people that you haven't been talking to for ages. Dreams can also give you the best ideas that you can never think of when you're awake. Two days ago, I woke up at 4am+, and I was like ''Oh snap, I've got to write this down...'' It wasn't something big or important, just some settings I thought could be used in an essay or a story. I wrote it on an used envelope and I think I stuck it in some book... Just the matter of time till I find it.

(Stupid Blogger isn't saving my post. Lets hope I can publish it without having to troubleshoot or anything...)

Oh yeah, dreams...

It's awesome, how perfect they can be, although most of them don't even make sense. They're so vague, and everything seems to work out in them. It's like... There's no impossible in dreamland, you just have to go with the flow and well, enjoy it.

What the hell am I talking about....?

I'm not sure...

Hell...

~~In a nutshell~~ So, dream all you want, but keep in mind that reality is a bitch and it will snap in whenever it wants to.

Less than three

2011-09-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

How I wish tomorrow isn't tomorrow.

You get me.

Twists and turns

2011-09-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

Went shooting in Clearwater on Wednesday.

No shooting sounds so serious and pro... Erm... We went around the club with a camera, pretending we're from other states.

Yeap this sounds better...

I got inspired by a picture of Emma Watson with her hot hot brother.

Ignore my broom-like hair and my hey-i-just-woke-up brother.

Heh it looks kinda hawt.

LOL

I've GOT to do something with my hair. I'm serious now.

I'm never gonna dye it, at least I think so now, I don't wanna straighten it cuz I think it looks really fake and well... its like bunches of black shiny metal sticking on your head, if you get what I mean...

I don't feel like curling it cuz I'm too lazy to maintain.

So now what...

Bald or relaxation.

Bald is faster, and zero maintenance.

It took me forever to get my siblings to climb into the boat... It's kinda... broken... and it will definitely sink if another fat person climb in with us...

And keep in mind it was noon and it was freaking oven there.

If I had an old, thick book with me...

Haha! Imagine...

Damn Tumblr-ish right...

I love my teeth.

End of story.

I know the resolution is shittier than shit but yeah...

Damned blogger changed the uploader again.

Dude, I don't mind waiting longer to upload better quality pictures, okay.

Now they're rushing everything, minimal time consumed but the quality sucks to hell...

The boat makes the whole thing look so... Arh idk how to put it...

The pavements actually lead you to a flight of stairs, which brings you to the broken boat, in case you're wondering...

Cuz in the photo it looks like they're leading you to the lake... And you're suppose to jump into it or something... the hell...

I haven't actually planned tomorrow's activities...

My night is occupied.

Morning... I think I'm gonna clean up the pets...

Afternoon...

No idea.

Movies?

Is there a creepier word than creepy?

2011-09-01T15:28:00.002+08:00

My throat is burning, my parents are out, I'm left at home with my cousins with nothing more edible than ice cream and I'm now watching a super hot British kissing a really pretty girl, and that's like so random, and my mom's calling....

***

Yay they're coming home with bubble tea. Just fyi, for all Ipoh-ians, there's finally a ChaTime in Ipoh. THE HELL RIGHT! And they're giving away a free cup when you buy one of any flavor. While stock lasts.

Dammit I'm freaking good at making ads.

I really want to cut my nose off right now, together with my trachea... Curse the bacteria who originated flu and colds. You deserve to be in hell of the hell.

***

Till now, it's still pointless fun and craziness. I have totally no intention to do anything productive other than laugh and eat and sleep all day. So if laughing is really the best medicine, please fucking work on me. Oh damn, I forgot about the laundry. See ya soon.

***

I'd do anything, to go back to Sunday again.

***

Byebye August, HELLO SEPTEMBER.
Lemmi tell you what you should do.
You are to give me consciousness when I'm studying or in class, you are to make me practice music more, you are to let me xxx xxx, you are to let me party hard (hey, it's September!), you are to rock my life with awesomeness, you are to let everything work out, you are to turn the grey sky baby blue, you are to put smiles on everyone's face. Well, that's easy, isn't it.

In less words:

Don't be a bitch.

Oh wait, that's negative....
Second attempt:

Fucking rock this word.

September is truly the best month ( okay fine, maybe December is better...). You've got an entire month till the finals, it's not too far away from November and December, which means holidays and vacations, and of course, the spanking shiny new year ahead, the weather is getting more rainy and cloudy, you get to go anywhere you want for getaways cuz there are like... less ( no) public holidays this month...

The list goes on and on. And right now, I have bubble tea to slurp.

Why don't You tell me...

2011-08-30T20:25:00.000+08:00

So.... What to say? I don't know... My holidays life? Just read carissa's blog and there, you know what I've been doing... At least I'm proud to tell you that I'm not addicted to my desktop anymore hehe... Okay idk how to enter to create a new paragraph... I'm hopeless in IT... No kidding... >< happy hari raya, btw... And happy merdeka... I feel so pointless now... Fine... I'm gonna give up and go watch some really stupid movie with my siblings. And may e have supper and go to bed by 9.30pm... Thank goodness my cousins are coming tomorrow... At least I won't be so bored I'd slaughter a cow... I desperately need to learn how to enter... Even my phone can do it... I guess I'm overestimating this brick... I need inspiration on what to do for the following days... Photoshoot? What? I think I'm gonna do one on my violin... It's weird how I've never done it...

Thanks for the salt...

2011-08-28T18:16:00.000+08:00

Mengelembu is beautiful.

LOL!

I have nothing to say.

SOrryyyyy....

Ciao.

And I secretly wish, in my heart, that...

2011-08-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

I own a blue pet platypus that's a secret agent who fights evil scientists...

I watched Phineas and Ferb Across the 2nd Dimension just now, and here's a fact:

I cried 2 times.
When the Phineas from 2nd dimension said he wanted to hold him longer.
And when they were confessing in the rooftop.

And a part of me died, when Phineas said Perry should go cuz (he thinks that) Perry didn't trust them...

I've never liked cartoons, but Phineas and Ferb, you nailed it. I love you guys. And of course, Lightning McQueen. I'm gonna come and see you real soon, just hang in there!!!

Okay I'm crazy.

OH SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIIIIITTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please kindly ignore those rude exclamations above.

4 more days, and I'm officially through with August. August hasn't been the best month, but still, it's not the worst. Besides, I won't consider it as a disastrous month, or unpleasant... but it certainly could be better. September, you better watch your back as I'll be leaping all out to get you. Yes I sound like a hungry hyena...

C, you know what? I'm perfectly proud of my self-control. ;)

I just realized that this blog post is like... so random... And I don't know why... But lets keep it this way.

Wait no. I'll blog more tomorrow, cuz right now, I have problem with getting my eyeballs focused on the monitor. Yes, I still use a monitor. Yes, that means I still have a huge CPU under my table. And yeah... My monitor doesn't have a built-in speaker. So I have like 3 cuboids sitting beside my monitor.
You've got a problem with that?

Alpha Kenny Body

2011-08-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

LOL!
Read this real fast, repeatedly... Had been ages since I last saw this, but I totally forgot to play in on anybody, until I did a Youtube recap just now.

Fact #1: I cried when I watched Toy Story 3 for the first time.

Fact #2: I wasn't sure if I were dreaming when I walked through the Sleeping Beauty castle for the first time.

Fact #3: I was STILL trying to convince myself that it's real when I strolled through it again last year. It was 10 times harder to believe because it was 100 times more fantasy-like. And I was with this awesome bunch of people.

Fact #4: I've never owned a laptop (as in all to myself). In my house, we don't OWN anything... Somehow... Everything is shared.

Fact #5: The first pets I had were 4 beautiful orange fishes from Weng Ni! =)

Fact #6: I've always thought that fairy tales are super lame. How weird... since I like Disney so much... hmm....

Fact #7: I don't think it's necessary for a guy to open a girl's car door. I mean, come on... You really want him to walk all the way, around the car to open your stinking door? You cacat ah!?

Fact #8: I hate cable cars or skyways.

And those guys who LOVES to jump around in them. Is there nothing else you can do?

Fact #9: I never really wanted to excel in languages. I know, I shouldn't limit myself blablabla... But yeah.

Fact #10: I've always wanted to live in a small cottage right beside the ocean.

Fact #11: I'm still waiting for hoverboards to be invented.

(Tumblr reminded me)

Fact #12: I'd die to visit the Sistine Chapel.

Fact #13: I never liked roses.

In fact, I never liked flowers.

In fact, I never liked plants.

Fact #14: If I'm told my life'll end in a day, I wouldn't do anything to stop it.

Bring it on.

Fact #15: I think it's amazing how music is equally understood by people from all over the world.

You can speak different languages, but once you take a glimpse at a piece of score, you produce the exact same thing.

Fact #16: I can NEVER EVER finish a can of Coke all by myself.

Fact #17: I know that snow is beautiful. It shows the calmness of the environment and all.

BUT it's not fun at all, walking on snow or even being around it...

Yucks.

You shoes get all soaked up and wet and muddy and snowball fights, they're killers. Your hands will end up getting frost bite.

Fact #18: I love glossies.

Lipsticks are for New Yorkers and... Old women.

Yay glossies!

Fact #19: I still try really hard to sleep at 10 everyday.

Btw, it's WAYYY past my bedtime.

Oh well.

Fact #20: I think it's freaking sexy for guys to play the piano. Like classics. Screw guitars. =)

Before you quit this window, please watch this:

He's legendary.

People always live forever when there is an annuity to be paid them.

2011-08-21T18:15:00.000+08:00

Dammit tomorrow is Monday again.
I'm speechless.
I'm gonna make myself some dinner now.
Heading out with Carissa later.

=)
Fyi, I developed the smiley-face-in-texts-and-IMs in year 2011.
Yeap. This year.
There's this really long story behind it.

God probably hates people like you who try to tell other people what to do

2011-08-20T21:57:00.001+08:00

I saw this VIDEO last night, and I got super angry.

I just don't get why...

So I learnt that Christians are against Homosexuals. Ok, fair, I mean, seriously, me too. Not that I am AGAINST them lah... just... I don't really accept it. Unless... Well, that's not important.

Then yesterday, I learnt that they're against masturbation too. And my first thought was, 'What? Why do you even care if people masturbate? What's wrong with masturbation?'

Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that I'm obsessed with masturbation (ewww... this sounds wrong...), and not that I'm against Christians (they're such kind and nice people, I doubt anyone can hate them, the good ones, of course) unless you're like a fanatic or something (no one likes you). But what I don't get is, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MASTURBATION.

Please go see the VIDEO before thinking that I'm lame and sensitive.

Look at how that blonde girl person talks. She was like 'Oh I pity you. Why do you choose such a life when you can live in a bright world just by believing God...' And Louis CK was like '=.='... I bet he was thinking, 'Girl, you're crazy, and you're an asshole. Seriously.' And if you watched close enough, you'll realize that every time he throws her a question, she'll bring everything back to God and blablabla....

It's a crime against God? Come on!

And you're okay with having sex...

Erm, so when we're sexually desperate, you just have to find someone and make love? Instead of masturbating, and get exposed to STD's and other diseases... And WORST of all... Get a kid.

Oh wait...

You're probably NOT okay with pre-marital sex...

So now what?

Darling, it's against human nature. I mean get real. People all around the world masturbates. And you, just you, think you have the right to judge people who gives pleasure to themselves and tell them they're living in darkness? And tell them their going against God's will? Majority wins, sucker.

Oh and fyi, I love Louis' last sentence:

Later I'm gonna masturbate and I'm gonna think about you and there's nothing you can do about it.

HAHAAHAHAHAH!
IN YOUR FACE!

Aww, that poor lady looked so... lost... and scared... Maybe she might commit suicide after that. She probably thinks that God's gonna hate her. Oh wait. I forgot, God forgives. So you're okay to live after all...

'I'm a good citizen, I'm a good father, I recycle and I masturbate.

And I'm proud of it. And God's happy.'

Over-thinking ruins everything

2011-08-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

I really could use a macaroon right now.

Minutes ago, I actually wanted to fill this post with curses and swears and you know.... Just try to get everything out of my mind. But, I saw these really beautiful pictures on Tumblr, and well, I guess they just took everything away, leaving their amazingness behind. The power of photography, it gives you hope, it takes your grief away, it takes jealousy away, it promises that everything is gonna be just fine.

When life's being a bitch, sometimes all we need to do is think of those little things that took our breath away. Those tiny smiles, sometimes they're the things that matter.

Check this out:

Yeah, so it's actually those little moments that counts. Can't think of any? Click HERE!

Fate succumbs many a species: one alone jeopardises itself.

2011-08-17T16:30:00.000+08:00

I feel like it’s been long time since I was a teenager. Like two years…so it’s been a while. When I was a teenager I felt like we were always being stereotyped as being really intense and dramatic and passionate and hopelessly romantic and excitable, and now in retrospect I think I need to let you know that I think all of those thing are amazing. I hope you never lose those things.

-Taylor S.

Malaysia sells iPad2 at the cheapest price

2011-08-14T18:29:00.001+08:00

Well, I'm not really surprised.

Since RM is so... affordable...

So I spent this weekend in Penang, like again...

No reasons available.

Teehee, this was the first picture I took there, and it's sort of an accident...

I was squatting, I can't remember why, and my finger pressed on the snap button and boom...

Ugh, why am I explaining this...

Lunch near my uncle's house.

I had a major steamboat the night before and I swore I was going to starve myself yesterday, and guess what...

I was in Penang, helloo!

Even God himself can't puasa in Penang.

Omg badminton ah....

KKK and TBH, byebye, you guys can't really compete anymore, I guess...

My Lee Yong-Dae, awww....

Feng Yun, WOOOHOOOOOO!!!!

LCW, erm... I'll pray for you?

LD, =DDD!

Dinner was at Times Square.

Okay I look so guilty here.

Fact: I had a huge bunch of peanuts in my mouth.

BOO!

Nah I didn't get to eat it...

I ate his neighbour. Mr Prawn.

Next was Straits Quay in BF, that place was awesome.

I know, right?

And there was quite a lot of baristas, bier hous, pubs and cafe...

It was something like that boat place in Singapore, all along the sea.

Sorry, I never wanted to know bout Singapore, so, I have problem remembering the names of the places. Not my fault, they just HAVE to make weird funny names.

Randomness...

And it had lots of noise.

Bout noises, some photographer-wanna-be says stuff like "omg, the blurry effect brings out feelings so well!'', right.

People spend thousands to get a flash and a nice tripod to avoid your dear 'blurry effect', you do the math.

The shops there were so cute.

Like cute, cute.

They had Sugar.

Omg I didn't know Malaysia has Sugar.

I saw it on T&L once, and it was somewhere in Europe, I think...

Delicious!

I miss your pasta.

Hey, what's in that ugly paper bag?

No, mother, I am not obsessed with macaroons.

Yet.

I bought it from Full of Beans.

Obviously I boosted the contrast of the photo.

Stupid Blogger, I hate their pic uploader.

It's so freaking blur!

*unedited.

Macaroons:

They look like small little buttons in Moron Test.

They have colours that make your gaze stick on them long enough for you to actually decide to buy them.

They are so shiny and perfect until you wonder if they are real or not.

They have the crispiest outer layer.

They have the sweetest and most inspirational fillings.

They melt in your mouth.

They taste like Cupid food.

Macaroons are awesome.

Today, nothing much, hovering around, cousins, chaos and noisy adults.

Hereby I end my post with an irrelevant picture:

GUYS!!!!!!

Miss you people loads.

What am I?

2011-08-12T23:39:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to think...

This is Mount. Kinabalu in Sabah, by the way...

Amazing right?

I know...

I find this so meaningless now... I remember how it used to make me feel, how it used to brighten my entire week... But now...

I have no idea at all, about what should I be feeling...

Holy shit I wanna slap myself

2011-08-07T14:34:00.000+08:00

It's 2 pm and it feels like midnight.

I keep pretending, but the truth is, I hate this. I hate whatever I think I should say or do. I hate whatever I cannot say or do. I hate the effort I'm putting in to maintain something that is not meant to be. And I hate the way I tell myself that whatever I'm heading right now, it's not meant to be.

Not meant to be, a lie I've been feeding myself since forever.

But it's the best lie I can think of.

At least it makes me believe.

It's like I'm jumping into a huge pile of bullshit willingly.

I would die to be a Stinson

2011-08-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

I'm craving for laser tag ...

Lets do some summary:

I slept at like, 3am ~~last night~~ this morning, then woke up at 7, cleaned all my pets' homes, C came over at 8.30, went upstairs and like... stared at our own devices, had McD delivered to my ~~doorstep~~ gate, ate, like pigs, continued staring, another C came over, both C's practiced their accompaniment thing, I read.... LOL! C went home, the other C and I resumed our previous activities, then at... God-knows-when, we went downstairs, ate ~~cookies~~ biscuits, got our concentration buried in some frog-swinging-with-bubbles-and-spider game, toyed with Looney before she went home.

In simpler words:

I did nothing productive, or healthy today.

Which, is totally okay cuz there was and is like this major hangover feeling in my head now, despite my early morning coffee, milo, then McD coffee, then McD tea, then more milo, and more tea, till now I still have like a mug of tea beside me...

And about McD, gosh you suck.

1. The only branch that covers my area is the JJ branch, and it opens at like 9am, so it only starts delivering at like 9.45am. Goodness, I'm already having brunch by then, and they call themselves 24-hours delivery service.

2. The first operator I called didn't even bothered to explain why I couldn't have my food delivered at 8am.

3. I ordered 3 sets and one a la carte, so there was suppose to be 3 hashbrowns. They only gave me one.

4. I called to complain, she sales girl didn't even took me seriously.

5. She went and check the voice order thing shit, and it was proven that I said 2 SETS of McMuffin plus egg thing, and she INSISTED that the operator only typed a la carte. And I was like what the heck, she remembered my coffee and tea, okay, there's no way she would have typed them if she thought I was ordering a la carte. The person was kind of pissed by then. PISSED! How can you be pissed at the customer!?

6. Then she was like blaming everything on the operator, and said that I need to pay extra to get my hashbrowns delivered. And fyi, it wasn't about the hashbrowns, it was about rights and customer service. I guess I snapped, sort of, and reminded her that 'But I ordered SETS!', and highlighted her that it was THEIR mistake. She sighed and promised she will send someone with 2 hashbrowns. She sounded like I slapped her or something.

7. The man came with 2 hashbrowns, and gave me 50 cents. He said it was from the office.

So now what? You wanna pay me off for my silence!? Yeah right. Sucker.

And what the hell happened to your hashbrowns!? It's like you threw a bomb into the fryer to speed up the cooking part.

Over exposed

2011-08-06T13:18:00.002+08:00

I'd clone hundreds of you

2011-08-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

I meant Looney.

Hey look what I invented during the single but super long and boring hour during civics paper this afternoon...

~~Cloudy with a chance of meatballs.~~

Kissing in the rain with a chance of getting struck by lightning.

Get it!??!?!?! HAHAHA!

Kissing in the rain scenes are like all over those so-called romantic dramas, movies, novels, comics.... Seriously, people, what's the romantic part of it?

Your clothes get soaking wet, your skin will be drenched, your hair will start to stick on your face like some crazy sticky plasticine thing shit, you open your mouth to explore further and dammit water flows into your mouth. And when your breathing starts to speed up, you inhale rain water, which, smells and tastes like fart most of the time.

And I really think I've got the slightest idea of my future career.

Erm...

Veterinary medicine.

I mean, all my life, I thought I wanted to be a doctor, because of various reasons. These includes being exposed to the coolest stuff no kids of my age had ever seen before, those really incredible machines you can only find in a hospital lab. I used to play with a cell counter when I followed my mom to work on Saturdays. I was only... like 6? Okay this is out of the point.

But why vet not med?

How to cure cancer?

vs.

What a caterpillar does when it's in a pupa?

I'd choose the later.

Okay, time to come clean...

I get sick of humans, being around humans, talking to humans, and being a human. No offence. We blame each other for everything and anything, it's never our fault, cuz we are too busy keeping ourselves in our bloody comfort zone...

Animals never ever blame you.
End of story.

Yeah so... yeah....
I'm like having too much fun right now to talk further.

Thousands of feelings. Not even one single word.

2011-07-30T22:51:00.002+08:00

I know right, yay me.

Just stating a fact

2011-07-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

I just read some one's blog, and realized I should really really do more blogging.

But you see, the thing is, I don't have much on my mind now.

All I know is that exam's coming in 4 days, I'm really not prepared, I don't know what to feel, it's like I'm waiting for someone to appear, I'm watching a drama that no body's watching anymore, it's ancient but it's the best drama I've watched in my entire life, imagine, this hot rich dude still uses the camera-less Nokia phone, I am aware that Tumblr speaks the language of my soul, I'm singing along to a song that is such a failure that nobody I know knows how to sing, but it's awesome, I should sleep now.

I miss Disneyland.

I miss Mickey and Minnie in the parade, I miss the fake snow, I miss the beautiful fireworks above the castle. I miss the magical feeling I get when I walk through the castle, I miss how enchanting it was to take photos with Pooh and Tiger, I miss their cute little restaurants, I miss their adorable rubbish bins, I miss their forever-blooming flowers, I miss the I-don't-give-a-shit feeling when I'm just there.

I need to shop.

I need new pants, new cardis, new shoes, new headbands, new nail polishes, new bags, new body splashes, new balm, new graphic tees, new shades, new hats, new hoodies, new summer skirts, new dress (Oh shit I haven't figured out what to wear for my violin exam!), new socks! Sleeping socks!

I need a haircut, like seriously, I'm so bored of my hair.

I want a lomo cam, a spaceship, a telescope, a duckling, a land turtle, a new violin, a stinking dress for the stinking exam, a pair of stinking shoes to match the stinking dress, A's and more A's, to play my second piano piece perfectly, to know how to play jazz with the jazzy feeling, a classy luggage bag, act like a pro, sing like Mariah, you.

It's amazing how NASA is capable of being so irrational, guys like Noah from the Notebook even exists, how late it already is now, how fast our emotions change, how hard my theory is now, how much I hate touch screens, how cute my room is, how lovely Looney is and will be, how desperate I am for a good book, I can still do impromptu dancing after all this time although I suck at it now, that we will never ever get enough of everything, that those little magics to fool kids can be so well explained with the existence of physics, how beautiful carvings can be on wood, how a simple story can squeeze so many drops of tears.

This drama still makes me cry.